7:42 am, 26-6-09
Hehe. . .
Hehe. . .
Hehe. . .
Last nyte i went t0 bed with just a lil bit 0f tears n ingus. . .but its 0k. . .cuz ive g0t A LOT of kisses. . .maceh2. . .dats y i l0ve u. . .flaws n imperfecti0ns are m0re beautiful sumtimes. . .
H0ping n praying things wil get better. .
Btw,br0wsed y0utube. . .
F0und new vids. . .n0t new. .bt bru jumpa. . .
Nice 0ne. . .
Ch0p suey by s.0.a.d. . .
Then g0t m0re s0ngs. . .
D riffs n d beats begitu menenangkn jiwa. . .bla 0wg len dgr,c0nt0h spt ina dan kan0pi,mereka amat x suka. . .
Tp tu la. . .aku suka. . .i mean d music n d lyrix are n0t dat hard 0r harsh 0r watever. . .
Cth:
'0h i d0nt think u trust in my self-righte0us suicide, i cry when angels deserve t0 die. . .' -ch0p suey-
Kn sedih bunyinye. . .anak yg pth hati ngn ayah yg tlh mgabaikn nye. . .ayahnya amat baik diibaratkn sbg angels. . .lagu2 begini amatlah relate ngn aku. . .jgn la misjudged me. . .
Tp ada la lgu len yg membuat aku ska. . Cm lgu cina btajuk bu de bu ai. . .by wilber pan. . .n dan sebenarnya by yuna. . .bla3. . .i dun realy like indie. . .but bleh la lyn. . .muzik s.0.a.d dan sewaktunya is better la. . .lyrix sedih but c0nvey str0ngly. . .makes me feel bersemangat. . .sedih tp jgn menangis. . .x m0 jd p0mpuan lembik. . .huhu. . .
Yeah!
P/s: nsib bek cer0l x menghalang karier sy sbgi peminat muzik begitu. . .l0l. . .
25 June 2009
21 June 2009
P0st ke-60
6:53 AM, 22-6-2009
Pg yg gelap kini sudah terang. . .
0h3! Tidak sama sekali bg aku. . .
Pagi2 pas subuh dh ngs. . .
Mata aku sgt bengkak. . .
Apasal mcm ni. . .
Rasa x n0rmal. . .
Apasal x mcm 0wg len. . .
Family begini. . .
B0yfren begitu. . .
X nk lyn aku xpe. . .
Jgn smpi tba masa aku dh mls nk lyn anda2 seme. . .jgn pk hati kering u je,i punya hati pun bleh kering. . .
D0nt wake up d sleeping d0g. . .
Time ni seme nk keras kepala!
Kang aku j0in keras kepala jgk,jgn nk slhkn aku lg!
Aku wat dek je,mgalah,mrayu,menangis,k0rg lg pijak kepala aku!
AKU DAH B0SAN NGN PERMAINAN ANDA2 SEME!
N0w its my time!
Pg yg gelap kini sudah terang. . .
0h3! Tidak sama sekali bg aku. . .
Pagi2 pas subuh dh ngs. . .
Mata aku sgt bengkak. . .
Apasal mcm ni. . .
Rasa x n0rmal. . .
Apasal x mcm 0wg len. . .
Family begini. . .
B0yfren begitu. . .
X nk lyn aku xpe. . .
Jgn smpi tba masa aku dh mls nk lyn anda2 seme. . .jgn pk hati kering u je,i punya hati pun bleh kering. . .
D0nt wake up d sleeping d0g. . .
Time ni seme nk keras kepala!
Kang aku j0in keras kepala jgk,jgn nk slhkn aku lg!
Aku wat dek je,mgalah,mrayu,menangis,k0rg lg pijak kepala aku!
AKU DAH B0SAN NGN PERMAINAN ANDA2 SEME!
N0w its my time!
20 June 2009
Satisfy
Its hard t0 satisfy pe0ple. I swear by my father's name,i l0ve mama. But y is she like diz. Mama tny,nurul jwb. N jwpn tu dh wat mama kecik ati,maybe,tp nurul x maw tipu dri sendiri. Seumur idup nurul cuma seorang shj abah nurul ada. Se0rang shj. N dats it. Nurul x phm npa mama msti maj0k. Bnda ni mama x leh paksa. Kalau nurul bleh fhm mama nk kawen lg,n0w its ur time t0 understand what i feel. Hes n0t my father. Nurul binti md isa ismail. Bukan binti 0thman said. Im s0ry.
N0w,mama x maw ckp ngn nurul. Tpaksa nurul settle evryting sndiri. Medical checkup,cemana nurul nk buat suma tu? Nurul x ley drive. X kn nk bwk m0t0 p h0spital. Jauh mama. Nurul x cident mati bru mama hepi ka? Since u hate me s0 much (she didnt even l0ok at my face diz m0rning), i think i shud g0 away fr0m diz h0use.
I l0ve u,mama.
Diz b0ther my mind making it crazier n crazier evrytime kita selisih n u dun even glance at me.
N0w,mama x maw ckp ngn nurul. Tpaksa nurul settle evryting sndiri. Medical checkup,cemana nurul nk buat suma tu? Nurul x ley drive. X kn nk bwk m0t0 p h0spital. Jauh mama. Nurul x cident mati bru mama hepi ka? Since u hate me s0 much (she didnt even l0ok at my face diz m0rning), i think i shud g0 away fr0m diz h0use.
I l0ve u,mama.
Diz b0ther my mind making it crazier n crazier evrytime kita selisih n u dun even glance at me.
16 June 2009
Gila Otak Aku
Aku rs 0tak aku dah mereng.
Aku bkn aku.
Aku bkn yg mcm aku mahu. Damn.
Celaka.
Shit.
B0d0h.
Bangang.
All d ab0ve,are referring t0 me.
Dats all.
Curtain cl0sed.
Aku bkn aku.
Aku bkn yg mcm aku mahu. Damn.
Celaka.
Shit.
B0d0h.
Bangang.
All d ab0ve,are referring t0 me.
Dats all.
Curtain cl0sed.
15 June 2009
OMG!
7:03 AM, 16-6-2009
Knp OMG??
Kerana,30minutes b4,i w0ke up n perf0rm my m0rning prayer. Then i tried t0 sleep lg,besa la,pas subuh k0mpem td0q blek,but,this time i cudnt sleep.s0mething is wr0ng s0mewhere.my heart beats t0o fast like it realy g0nna p0p 0ut 0f my chest,it beats t0o hard im afrain it w0nt beat again..
S0,i t0ok a deep breath(diz is what bi2 awez t0ld me t0 d0 if i were t0 get caught up in tr0uble)..0pen d 0.M applicati0n..cri l0ve qu0tes..bla3...then suddenly cm like really 0ut 0f sudden,this th0ught p0p int0 my mind. I FORGOT WHETHER I SUJUD RAKAAT KEDUA,TAHIYAT AKHIR,N DOA or n0t time smyg td..i was like,whats happening t0 my mind? S0 amek wudhu,s0lat lg skali. I just t0tally f0rg0t what i did between after my qunut til d m0ment i first step int0 bed t0 td0 balek.
I m s0o freaking 0ut n0w.
M i g0ing crazy?
M i l0sing my mem0ry?
Pls n0t my mem0ry with him..
S0 scared..feeling s0 psych0tic n abn0rmal..wish hes awake t0 c0mf0rt me..bt hes n0t..n i dun want t0 wake him up just cuz i freak 0ut..bt need t0 talk t0 sum0ne s0 dat i cn feel n0rmal..mayb i shud just sleep..cn i call him? What if he g0t mad n said im l0cking hm up? Dun want cmtu l0r..what t0 d0? Aiy0..just call la..if he x agkt,then i just sleep..
Again,OMG!
Knp OMG??
Kerana,30minutes b4,i w0ke up n perf0rm my m0rning prayer. Then i tried t0 sleep lg,besa la,pas subuh k0mpem td0q blek,but,this time i cudnt sleep.s0mething is wr0ng s0mewhere.my heart beats t0o fast like it realy g0nna p0p 0ut 0f my chest,it beats t0o hard im afrain it w0nt beat again..
S0,i t0ok a deep breath(diz is what bi2 awez t0ld me t0 d0 if i were t0 get caught up in tr0uble)..0pen d 0.M applicati0n..cri l0ve qu0tes..bla3...then suddenly cm like really 0ut 0f sudden,this th0ught p0p int0 my mind. I FORGOT WHETHER I SUJUD RAKAAT KEDUA,TAHIYAT AKHIR,N DOA or n0t time smyg td..i was like,whats happening t0 my mind? S0 amek wudhu,s0lat lg skali. I just t0tally f0rg0t what i did between after my qunut til d m0ment i first step int0 bed t0 td0 balek.
I m s0o freaking 0ut n0w.
M i g0ing crazy?
M i l0sing my mem0ry?
Pls n0t my mem0ry with him..
S0 scared..feeling s0 psych0tic n abn0rmal..wish hes awake t0 c0mf0rt me..bt hes n0t..n i dun want t0 wake him up just cuz i freak 0ut..bt need t0 talk t0 sum0ne s0 dat i cn feel n0rmal..mayb i shud just sleep..cn i call him? What if he g0t mad n said im l0cking hm up? Dun want cmtu l0r..what t0 d0? Aiy0..just call la..if he x agkt,then i just sleep..
Again,OMG!
14 June 2009
Mimpi
Fikiran terganggu.die rase x? Die mpi x yg aku mpi? Aku mpi pertemuan jannah dan cer0l. N0w dat die tamaw aku,means dat,die tamaw cer0l. Aku kah yg gatal? Die x teringin ke? Aku x leh teruskn mcm ni. I need t0 get high t0 f0get dis pain. Hes smiling aredi. Hes n0t feeling kepedihan anym0re. In a relati0nship,b0th need t0 d0 anything dat cud b d0ne t0 save d relati0nship. Bt,n0w,im d0ing it al0ne. He needs 'time'. I dun like waiting, cuz time awez n0t 0n my side. I guess n0w is d rite time f0r me t0 d0 diz. Since n0b0dy cares my feeling anym+re. U,d 0nly h0pe i had,d 0nly 0ne i trust,als0 leaving me. I am al0ne, standing against d wh0le w0rld. I cnt. S0,i hav t0 d0 diz.
Abah-minx ampun,im n0t dat str0ng.
Mama-l0ve u.minx ampun da jd anak durhaka.
Bi2-i cnt b al0ne with0ut u.s0ry.t0ld u time n0t 0n my side.i cnt bear with diz th0ught 0f u leaving me.d pain is sumthng s0o 'cruel' f0r my heart.i cnt wait f0r t0o l0ng.y cnt u undstand.
Bdrul,kitty,bear2,husni-u guys are d best.n0 matter wat,u awez sap0t me.muah.n0w,u g0ta take cre 0f urself.
Abah-minx ampun,im n0t dat str0ng.
Mama-l0ve u.minx ampun da jd anak durhaka.
Bi2-i cnt b al0ne with0ut u.s0ry.t0ld u time n0t 0n my side.i cnt bear with diz th0ught 0f u leaving me.d pain is sumthng s0o 'cruel' f0r my heart.i cnt wait f0r t0o l0ng.y cnt u undstand.
Bdrul,kitty,bear2,husni-u guys are d best.n0 matter wat,u awez sap0t me.muah.n0w,u g0ta take cre 0f urself.
13 June 2009
Patah hati
Apa yg berlaku smlm dah membuktikan yg aku...
1)x mgkin dcintai sesiapa
2)x dk mkna bg dia
3)hina
4)dh hampakan diri sndiri dan 0rg lain kerana beberapa impian x kn tertunai
5)n0t needed in diz w0rld
S0,
I'll g0..
1)x mgkin dcintai sesiapa
2)x dk mkna bg dia
3)hina
4)dh hampakan diri sndiri dan 0rg lain kerana beberapa impian x kn tertunai
5)n0t needed in diz w0rld
S0,
I'll g0..
10 June 2009
The Water Tank
1:37 PM, 11-6-2009
Dulu2..
Ms abah bru meninggal,mama slalu tensi0n2..tp dia x pnh mrh abg..slalu mrh aku..n kdg2 dia r0tan aku ja..abg x ngaku slh dia..aku yg kena..n bla jd cmtu,aku slalu lari p kt tangki ayaq..pnjt tga dia..n duk situ smpi magrib..
N0w,im here again..pns tp berangin..cm aku gak..pns kt dlm..tp luaq kna senyum bla balek st g..hmmmmm..time2 mcm ni,rindu aku kt abah jd btambah2..aku anak fav0rite dia..n when hes g0ne,n0b0dy defend me bla kena mrh ngn mama..nurul nk abah..pls take me with u..n0b0dy wants me here..feel like jumping 0ff fr0m here..kalau aku mati pun,x dk sapa yg rugi..
I just wanna l0ve sumb0dy n be l0ve by sumb0dy..
Dulu2..
Ms abah bru meninggal,mama slalu tensi0n2..tp dia x pnh mrh abg..slalu mrh aku..n kdg2 dia r0tan aku ja..abg x ngaku slh dia..aku yg kena..n bla jd cmtu,aku slalu lari p kt tangki ayaq..pnjt tga dia..n duk situ smpi magrib..
N0w,im here again..pns tp berangin..cm aku gak..pns kt dlm..tp luaq kna senyum bla balek st g..hmmmmm..time2 mcm ni,rindu aku kt abah jd btambah2..aku anak fav0rite dia..n when hes g0ne,n0b0dy defend me bla kena mrh ngn mama..nurul nk abah..pls take me with u..n0b0dy wants me here..feel like jumping 0ff fr0m here..kalau aku mati pun,x dk sapa yg rugi..
I just wanna l0ve sumb0dy n be l0ve by sumb0dy..
Lapang Hatiku :D
11:27 PM, 10-6-2009
Lega sgt dia k0l aku b4 td0..
Rasa lapang sgt hati nie..
Ive g0t t0 c0ntr0l my jeal0usy..
N if im jeal0us again i dun want him t0 b mad at me..
Mayb jeal0usy is in my bl0od..
Cnt rid it..
Cn c0ntr0l it 0nly..
N need him t0 help me..
N0w,bru bleh td0..lega sgt..dah x jeles dah..even p0mpuan tu cntik sgt,he stil by myside..at least til diz sec0nd..
L0ve him s0 much..
Gud nyte,l0ve~~
Lega sgt dia k0l aku b4 td0..
Rasa lapang sgt hati nie..
Ive g0t t0 c0ntr0l my jeal0usy..
N if im jeal0us again i dun want him t0 b mad at me..
Mayb jeal0usy is in my bl0od..
Cnt rid it..
Cn c0ntr0l it 0nly..
N need him t0 help me..
N0w,bru bleh td0..lega sgt..dah x jeles dah..even p0mpuan tu cntik sgt,he stil by myside..at least til diz sec0nd..
L0ve him s0 much..
Gud nyte,l0ve~~
....
11:07 PM, 10-6-2009
Nuyu what? Wh0's tat?
Ya allah..
Pdmkn api cemburu ku..
Br smpi umh..
Check fb..
Mayb dia x maw diganggu..
Dia tgh tgk b0la..
Aku td0 dlu la..
Cedey sgt..
:(((((
Nuyu what? Wh0's tat?
Ya allah..
Pdmkn api cemburu ku..
Br smpi umh..
Check fb..
Mayb dia x maw diganggu..
Dia tgh tgk b0la..
Aku td0 dlu la..
Cedey sgt..
:(((((
Teringin
3:20 PM, 10-6-2009
Sy teringin nk dberi hadiah..
Bru sy sedar,
Sy x pnh ada bday party..
Just wishes fr0m fwendz n siblings..
Neva g0t bday presents fr0m family..
Xcept..
F0rm3 nye bday bie bg badrul..
W0rse..
I neva g0t presents fr0m my mama..
0ther than that,pe0ple ar0und me g0t presents fr0m parent n siblings if they g0t nice exam results..
Me?
I g0t 5A's UPSR..
N when i g0t back h0me t0 tell my result,n0b0dy's h0me..
When my family finaly knew,they just said, '0h,0k la tu'..
Then i g0t 8A's PMR..
I called my mama t0 break d gud news..
She said..
'K la tu'..
N0 presents..
N0 c0ngrats..
Then i g0t 8A, 1B, 1C SPM..
Again,
'0h,awat x dpt 10A'...
N0te dat i went t0 take my results al0ne,with0ut c0mpani0n fr0m my family,all succes celebrated with my frenz..geng butet..0nly time SPM, tu pun t0k nk ikut..dats y mama g0t t0 drive me t0 badlishah..
Bru skg sedar..
Start my age 12,after abah meninggal,x dk sapa manjakn sy lg..
Dats y..
I yearn f0r their attenti0n with all d gud results..
Yet..im n0t gud enuf t0 b appreciated..by them..n 0ther pe0ple..
T0 sum1,d0 u n0e dat ur s0 lucky t0 have such a supp0rtive family..
Sy teringin nk dberi hadiah..
Bru sy sedar,
Sy x pnh ada bday party..
Just wishes fr0m fwendz n siblings..
Neva g0t bday presents fr0m family..
Xcept..
F0rm3 nye bday bie bg badrul..
W0rse..
I neva g0t presents fr0m my mama..
0ther than that,pe0ple ar0und me g0t presents fr0m parent n siblings if they g0t nice exam results..
Me?
I g0t 5A's UPSR..
N when i g0t back h0me t0 tell my result,n0b0dy's h0me..
When my family finaly knew,they just said, '0h,0k la tu'..
Then i g0t 8A's PMR..
I called my mama t0 break d gud news..
She said..
'K la tu'..
N0 presents..
N0 c0ngrats..
Then i g0t 8A, 1B, 1C SPM..
Again,
'0h,awat x dpt 10A'...
N0te dat i went t0 take my results al0ne,with0ut c0mpani0n fr0m my family,all succes celebrated with my frenz..geng butet..0nly time SPM, tu pun t0k nk ikut..dats y mama g0t t0 drive me t0 badlishah..
Bru skg sedar..
Start my age 12,after abah meninggal,x dk sapa manjakn sy lg..
Dats y..
I yearn f0r their attenti0n with all d gud results..
Yet..im n0t gud enuf t0 b appreciated..by them..n 0ther pe0ple..
T0 sum1,d0 u n0e dat ur s0 lucky t0 have such a supp0rtive family..
Teringin
3:20 PM, 10-6-2009
Sy teringin nk dberi hadiah..
Bru sy sedar,
Sy x pnh ada bday party..
Just wishes fr0m fwendz n siblings..
Neva g0t bday presents fr0m family..
Xcept..
F0rm3 nye bday bie bg badrul..
W0rse..
I neva g0t presents fr0m my mama..
0ther than that,pe0ple ar0und me g0t presents fr0m parent n siblings if they g0t nice exam results..
Me?
I g0t 5A's UPSR..
N when i g0t back h0me t0 tell my result,n0b0dy's h0me..
When my family finaly knew,they just said, '0h,0k la tu'..
Then i g0t 8A's PMR..
I called my mama t0 break d gud news..
She said..
'K la tu'..
N0 presents..
N0 c0ngrats..
Then i g0t 8A, 1B, 1C SPM..
Again,
'0h,awat x dpt 10A'...
N0te dat i went t0 take my results al0ne,with0ut c0mpani0n fr0m my family,all succes celebrated with my frenz..geng butet..0nly time SPM, tu pun t0k nk ikut..dats y mama g0t t0 drive me t0 badlishah..
Bru skg sedar..
Start my age 12,after abah meninggal,x dk sapa manjakn sy lg..
Dats y..
I yearn f0r their attenti0n with all d gud results..
Yet..im n0t gud enuf t0 b appreciated..by them..n 0ther pe0ple..
T0 sum1,d0 u n0e dat ur s0 lucky t0 have such a supp0rtive family..
Sy teringin nk dberi hadiah..
Bru sy sedar,
Sy x pnh ada bday party..
Just wishes fr0m fwendz n siblings..
Neva g0t bday presents fr0m family..
Xcept..
F0rm3 nye bday bie bg badrul..
W0rse..
I neva g0t presents fr0m my mama..
0ther than that,pe0ple ar0und me g0t presents fr0m parent n siblings if they g0t nice exam results..
Me?
I g0t 5A's UPSR..
N when i g0t back h0me t0 tell my result,n0b0dy's h0me..
When my family finaly knew,they just said, '0h,0k la tu'..
Then i g0t 8A's PMR..
I called my mama t0 break d gud news..
She said..
'K la tu'..
N0 presents..
N0 c0ngrats..
Then i g0t 8A, 1B, 1C SPM..
Again,
'0h,awat x dpt 10A'...
N0te dat i went t0 take my results al0ne,with0ut c0mpani0n fr0m my family,all succes celebrated with my frenz..geng butet..0nly time SPM, tu pun t0k nk ikut..dats y mama g0t t0 drive me t0 badlishah..
Bru skg sedar..
Start my age 12,after abah meninggal,x dk sapa manjakn sy lg..
Dats y..
I yearn f0r their attenti0n with all d gud results..
Yet..im n0t gud enuf t0 b appreciated..by them..n 0ther pe0ple..
T0 sum1,d0 u n0e dat ur s0 lucky t0 have such a supp0rtive family..
09 June 2009
Abah.
1:26 PM, 10-6-2009
Tip0n t0k..
She said its p0ssible..
Tip0n ustaz..
He said it cud b..
S0..
Its true..
Its him!
Err..
Its him?
Yes..
Rite there..
Beside me..
Last nyte..
He visited me..
N0t in my dreams..
Its f0r real..
At first,i th0ught he was there t0 take me with him..
But hes just there..
His scent..
Minyak atar..
I rec0gnized d scent..
0nly f0r few sec0nds..
I didnt even remember what he w0re..
It happens t0o quickly..
Mayb he heard my wish t0 see him face t0 face..
He did c0me t0 me last nyte..
Im n0t hallucinating..
Im sure..
Very sure..
He didnt lo0k 0ld..
D m0st imp0rtant thing..
He was smiling..
Abah..
C0me t0 me evrynite,please..
I had gr0wn up..
Nurul jnji..
Jg nama abah baik2..
But please c0me t0 me again..
Im n0t scared..
Ur n0t gh0st..
Ur my father..
Please..
N if p0ssible,
Take me with u..
Tip0n t0k..
She said its p0ssible..
Tip0n ustaz..
He said it cud b..
S0..
Its true..
Its him!
Err..
Its him?
Yes..
Rite there..
Beside me..
Last nyte..
He visited me..
N0t in my dreams..
Its f0r real..
At first,i th0ught he was there t0 take me with him..
But hes just there..
His scent..
Minyak atar..
I rec0gnized d scent..
0nly f0r few sec0nds..
I didnt even remember what he w0re..
It happens t0o quickly..
Mayb he heard my wish t0 see him face t0 face..
He did c0me t0 me last nyte..
Im n0t hallucinating..
Im sure..
Very sure..
He didnt lo0k 0ld..
D m0st imp0rtant thing..
He was smiling..
Abah..
C0me t0 me evrynite,please..
I had gr0wn up..
Nurul jnji..
Jg nama abah baik2..
But please c0me t0 me again..
Im n0t scared..
Ur n0t gh0st..
Ur my father..
Please..
N if p0ssible,
Take me with u..
PRIVACY
7:03 AM, 10-6-2009
0k,mayb dis is what hes been thinking...
'AKU MAO PRIVASI,u st0opit shitty junky crappy bitchest 0f all d bitchest w0man! Get ur butt 0ff my n0se! WTH? My life is mine,urs is urs..g0t it,bitch?'
And this is what im thinking...
PRIVASI? Apakah?
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha..
In a nutshell,
Biarkan mereke dgn idup mereke..
Mayb aku bl0m lg pny hak begitu..
Peace n0 War~
Benci Anai2~
Wallahualam..
0k,mayb dis is what hes been thinking...
'AKU MAO PRIVASI,u st0opit shitty junky crappy bitchest 0f all d bitchest w0man! Get ur butt 0ff my n0se! WTH? My life is mine,urs is urs..g0t it,bitch?'
And this is what im thinking...
PRIVASI? Apakah?
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha..
In a nutshell,
Biarkan mereke dgn idup mereke..
Mayb aku bl0m lg pny hak begitu..
Peace n0 War~
Benci Anai2~
Wallahualam..
08 June 2009
Pohon Maaf
Maaf.
X bmaksud nk melukai sesiapa dlm p0st sy seblum ni.
Itu cuma luahan hati sy.
Jgn mrh sy.
Sy dh cukup sedih arini.
Izinkn sy senyum hari ini wpun cuma utk 10 saat.
X bmaksud nk melukai sesiapa dlm p0st sy seblum ni.
Itu cuma luahan hati sy.
Jgn mrh sy.
Sy dh cukup sedih arini.
Izinkn sy senyum hari ini wpun cuma utk 10 saat.
KONFLIK DALAMANKU :(
9:22 AM, 9-6-2009
Hari ni bermula dgn perkara yg x bgus maka membuat m0od aku hari ni x bgus. Dlm erti kata yg lain, hari ni hari aku bersedih. D yuckiest, w0rst part 0f being me is, pe0ple wil smirk, sc0rn, if i present myself t0 them with a sad l0ok 0n my face. I g0t em0ti0ns. D0nt expect me t0 be all bubbly evryday.
Selain itu,d sini sy ingin senaraikan perkara yg membuatkn sy sedih:
AMARAN: senarai d bwh mgkn npk remeh bg anda,tp tdk bg sy.
1) sy nk abah sy belikn sy seswatu yg sy nk(j*m). Ini x mgkn blaku kerana abah dh meninggal. Tp sy bharap dia masih idup dan manjakn sy.
2) perut sy lapar.
3) hatimanisku atau kalau translate jd my sweetheart pny gmbr yg plg sy x gemar masih wujud. Tis pissed me 0ff because ive already ask z*ck (bkn nama sbnr) t0 delete dat fucking pic. Mayb sumb0dy dun cre b0ut sumb0dy's feelings n sensitivity. N bi2 raised his v0ice t0 me because 0f tat. I n0e it passed aredi,but d pic is stil there. My eff0rt sia2. Bkn sy nk slhkn kekasihku, cuma, knp x cuba h0rmati perasaan sy yg x suka melihat gmbr tu. Mmg kalau x suka,jgn tgk,but ia x semudah tu. Sygku, aku cinta padamu. Mengerti aku. Lol.
4) ada anai2 byk lm bilik. B0d0h!
5) sy belum dtg bulan. (Ada kaitan x??)
Ini membuat sy berfikir. Adakah krn mereka gemar melihat sy bersedih maka mereka x peduli walaupun mereka tahu? Ser0n0k tgk sy bmuram durja? Adakah membuat sy gembira bkn satu kepentingan? Sy sedar sy cuma manusia biasa mlh lbh hina dr segala yg hina d muka bumi ini. Mungkin x dak faedah bg mereka utk tgk sy tersenyum atau dgr sy ketawa. Tapi, please la..sy juga mahu gembira..sy penat menangis..sy gadaikn semuanya utk kebahagiaan 0rg lain..knp ini yg sy dpt..bkn mghrp blsn..bkn berem0si..cuma luahan hati..saat mcm ni,sy berharap sy ilang ingatan agar semua ini x sy rasai. 0h tidak! kenapa? Why? Porke? Timkai?
END. :(
P/s: pecah kaca warna merah, lepas baca jgn marah.
Hari ni bermula dgn perkara yg x bgus maka membuat m0od aku hari ni x bgus. Dlm erti kata yg lain, hari ni hari aku bersedih. D yuckiest, w0rst part 0f being me is, pe0ple wil smirk, sc0rn, if i present myself t0 them with a sad l0ok 0n my face. I g0t em0ti0ns. D0nt expect me t0 be all bubbly evryday.
Selain itu,d sini sy ingin senaraikan perkara yg membuatkn sy sedih:
AMARAN: senarai d bwh mgkn npk remeh bg anda,tp tdk bg sy.
1) sy nk abah sy belikn sy seswatu yg sy nk(j*m). Ini x mgkn blaku kerana abah dh meninggal. Tp sy bharap dia masih idup dan manjakn sy.
2) perut sy lapar.
3) hatimanisku atau kalau translate jd my sweetheart pny gmbr yg plg sy x gemar masih wujud. Tis pissed me 0ff because ive already ask z*ck (bkn nama sbnr) t0 delete dat fucking pic. Mayb sumb0dy dun cre b0ut sumb0dy's feelings n sensitivity. N bi2 raised his v0ice t0 me because 0f tat. I n0e it passed aredi,but d pic is stil there. My eff0rt sia2. Bkn sy nk slhkn kekasihku, cuma, knp x cuba h0rmati perasaan sy yg x suka melihat gmbr tu. Mmg kalau x suka,jgn tgk,but ia x semudah tu. Sygku, aku cinta padamu. Mengerti aku. Lol.
4) ada anai2 byk lm bilik. B0d0h!
5) sy belum dtg bulan. (Ada kaitan x??)
Ini membuat sy berfikir. Adakah krn mereka gemar melihat sy bersedih maka mereka x peduli walaupun mereka tahu? Ser0n0k tgk sy bmuram durja? Adakah membuat sy gembira bkn satu kepentingan? Sy sedar sy cuma manusia biasa mlh lbh hina dr segala yg hina d muka bumi ini. Mungkin x dak faedah bg mereka utk tgk sy tersenyum atau dgr sy ketawa. Tapi, please la..sy juga mahu gembira..sy penat menangis..sy gadaikn semuanya utk kebahagiaan 0rg lain..knp ini yg sy dpt..bkn mghrp blsn..bkn berem0si..cuma luahan hati..saat mcm ni,sy berharap sy ilang ingatan agar semua ini x sy rasai. 0h tidak! kenapa? Why? Porke? Timkai?
END. :(
P/s: pecah kaca warna merah, lepas baca jgn marah.
07 June 2009
Pain 0f J0y
9:50 AM, 8-6-2009
W0ke up..
Still feel d pain there..
But nvm..
Im happy..
Hes happy..
Im happy to0..
Mayb dats d way we rej0ice after a day in silence..
Its 0nly 1 day..
But i missed him..
N he missed me to0..
Sweeeet..
Kami pasangan yg slalu bgaduh..
N0te dat we awez fight bukan we lyke fight..
We lyke kisses..
L0ts 0f kisses..
Huhu..
N0w im feeling dizzy..
Mayb cuz i didnt take dinner last nyte..
Huhu..
Better sleep s0me m0re..
Lalink,muahx!
W0ke up..
Still feel d pain there..
But nvm..
Im happy..
Hes happy..
Im happy to0..
Mayb dats d way we rej0ice after a day in silence..
Its 0nly 1 day..
But i missed him..
N he missed me to0..
Sweeeet..
Kami pasangan yg slalu bgaduh..
N0te dat we awez fight bukan we lyke fight..
We lyke kisses..
L0ts 0f kisses..
Huhu..
N0w im feeling dizzy..
Mayb cuz i didnt take dinner last nyte..
Huhu..
Better sleep s0me m0re..
Lalink,muahx!
06 June 2009
Patience
4:01 PM, 6-6-2009
Wan nurul jannah md isa was n0t b0rn with patience..
Im s0ry bi2..
I tried..
I cant..
I want t0..
Bt i cant..
H0w??
Why??
I dunn0e..
1st,
He didnt want t0 'kejut' me f0r s0lat..
Isnt dats what we awez did b4?
Im exaggerating or ur testing my patience..
Instead 0f l0sing my head again,i just smile..think b0ut d sweet mem0ries we had..then i calmed d0wn..
I th0ught dats it..then i 0pen his fb pr0file t0 see what ive p0sted 0n his wall..i didnt expect t0 see a gurl p0sted 'thanx' 0n his wall..i n0e its just a friend..bt im curi0us,thanx 4 what? N dat gurl is sexy,chubby..his type..i lo0k at myself in d mirr0r..me n0t his type? 0r m i exaggerating again? I mean..laki mana tamaw gurl lyke dat kn..huhu..
Again,i keep it t0 myself..
Then,dis n0on,i f0und 0ut my fwen g0t mms n she said i cn ask him t0 send me his pic t0 my fwend's f0n..i went gaga..eksaited..extremely happy..well,i havent see him f0r such a l0ng tyme already..is it wr0ng? He refused th0..said that 'muka i x berubah pun'..i n0e dat bi2..but..again,whats wr0ng if u just send me ur pic..i wana see u badly..
Ive tried bi2..
Its n0t dat i didnt..but i did..
S0,y ur stil acting c0ld..
It makes me feel s0 sad..
N u n0e it k..
Please..
PLEASE..
Rite n0w,im n0t feeling mad 0r whats0eva..
Im feeling anxi0us,c0nfuse,w0rried,sad..
Its like..
What ive d0ne wr0ng again diz time..
But still..
I l0ve u..
N dats d price i have t0 pay just t0 l0ve y0u..
Wan nurul jannah md isa was n0t b0rn with patience..
Im s0ry bi2..
I tried..
I cant..
I want t0..
Bt i cant..
H0w??
Why??
I dunn0e..
1st,
He didnt want t0 'kejut' me f0r s0lat..
Isnt dats what we awez did b4?
Im exaggerating or ur testing my patience..
Instead 0f l0sing my head again,i just smile..think b0ut d sweet mem0ries we had..then i calmed d0wn..
I th0ught dats it..then i 0pen his fb pr0file t0 see what ive p0sted 0n his wall..i didnt expect t0 see a gurl p0sted 'thanx' 0n his wall..i n0e its just a friend..bt im curi0us,thanx 4 what? N dat gurl is sexy,chubby..his type..i lo0k at myself in d mirr0r..me n0t his type? 0r m i exaggerating again? I mean..laki mana tamaw gurl lyke dat kn..huhu..
Again,i keep it t0 myself..
Then,dis n0on,i f0und 0ut my fwen g0t mms n she said i cn ask him t0 send me his pic t0 my fwend's f0n..i went gaga..eksaited..extremely happy..well,i havent see him f0r such a l0ng tyme already..is it wr0ng? He refused th0..said that 'muka i x berubah pun'..i n0e dat bi2..but..again,whats wr0ng if u just send me ur pic..i wana see u badly..
Ive tried bi2..
Its n0t dat i didnt..but i did..
S0,y ur stil acting c0ld..
It makes me feel s0 sad..
N u n0e it k..
Please..
PLEASE..
Rite n0w,im n0t feeling mad 0r whats0eva..
Im feeling anxi0us,c0nfuse,w0rried,sad..
Its like..
What ive d0ne wr0ng again diz time..
But still..
I l0ve u..
N dats d price i have t0 pay just t0 l0ve y0u..
05 June 2009
Sod.Ba.Ro=Sabar
11:35 PM, 5-6-2009
Jgn mrh,jannah..
Sabar..sabar..sabar..
He l0ves y0u..
Hes just being his self..
U l0ve him aite,jannah?
S0,b patient..
Even being patient isnt just ur thing,f0r him u must b patient..
Dat sh0ws h0w much u sincerely l0ve him..
Igt,u r d 0nly gurl he l0ves..
He ch0se u when 0ther guy ran away fr0m u..
Its 0k if he care less b0ut n0w n then..
Its 0k if hes c0ld t0wards u sumtimes..
Its 0k if he ign0res u f0r few h0urs..
Because he l0ves u ALL the time..
What else cn u ask fr0m sum0ne like him..
Dats m0re than d best he cud giv t0 u..
Be patient k..
Co0l d0wn..
Inhale..
Exhale..
Inhale..
Exhale..
Smile..
Take ur hands 0ff d p0or s0fa..
Get s0s n kicap..
Hug it..
Like u hug him..
Like u never see him again..
(Dis p0st is ab0ut my g0od side trying t0 c0ol d0wn my evil side and keep her fr0m resurface again in my mind)
Jgn mrh,jannah..
Sabar..sabar..sabar..
He l0ves y0u..
Hes just being his self..
U l0ve him aite,jannah?
S0,b patient..
Even being patient isnt just ur thing,f0r him u must b patient..
Dat sh0ws h0w much u sincerely l0ve him..
Igt,u r d 0nly gurl he l0ves..
He ch0se u when 0ther guy ran away fr0m u..
Its 0k if he care less b0ut n0w n then..
Its 0k if hes c0ld t0wards u sumtimes..
Its 0k if he ign0res u f0r few h0urs..
Because he l0ves u ALL the time..
What else cn u ask fr0m sum0ne like him..
Dats m0re than d best he cud giv t0 u..
Be patient k..
Co0l d0wn..
Inhale..
Exhale..
Inhale..
Exhale..
Smile..
Take ur hands 0ff d p0or s0fa..
Get s0s n kicap..
Hug it..
Like u hug him..
Like u never see him again..
(Dis p0st is ab0ut my g0od side trying t0 c0ol d0wn my evil side and keep her fr0m resurface again in my mind)
04 June 2009
Evil vs Good
12:43 AM, 5-6-2009
Wakakaka..
Cnt sleep..
He slept 0redi..
Nvm..sleep tight bi2..
Fr0m n0w 0n,im g0na change..f0r sure..this is my turning p0int..i wana b like abah..a g0od man he was..s0 a g0od girl i wil b..bad girl g0ne g0od..h0pe b0th m0st imp0rtant men in my life pr0ud 0f me n my willingness t0 impr0ve..
B4 sleep,i played makeup2 just n0w..pls d0nt tease me..dis is an0ther secret,n0t many pe0ple n0e b0ut me..s0 th0se wh0 read my bl0g,ur lucky..hehehe..kidding..s0,back t0 d main r0ad,i mean main p0int,i played makeup2 td..but i 0nly put dark-c0l0ured eye shad0w 0n my left eyelid,i put l0ts 0f mascara 0n my left eyelashes, put heavy eyeliner 0n my left eye's rim,really black 0ne..damn i l0ok evil..like realy evil.. While f0r my right eye,i dun put any makeup 0n it..i l0ok g0od..pure..inn0cent..
I l0oked int0 d mirr0r, which side m i? Left 0r rite? Evil 0r g0od? I wana b g0od..but when i take a l0ok at my evil l0ok,i smiled..wh0a..n0w dats freaky..i t0ok AN0THER l0ok at my right side, d g0od 0ne, smiled a bit, hmmm..first time in my life i feel im pretty..u n0e, gadis chantek..
Huhu..i think i l0ok better as a g0od girl..i wana b g0od..i ch0se t0 b g0od..i decided t0 b g0od..n0w,my dear evil side,R.I.P..i dun need u n0w..
Wakakaka..
Cnt sleep..
He slept 0redi..
Nvm..sleep tight bi2..
Fr0m n0w 0n,im g0na change..f0r sure..this is my turning p0int..i wana b like abah..a g0od man he was..s0 a g0od girl i wil b..bad girl g0ne g0od..h0pe b0th m0st imp0rtant men in my life pr0ud 0f me n my willingness t0 impr0ve..
B4 sleep,i played makeup2 just n0w..pls d0nt tease me..dis is an0ther secret,n0t many pe0ple n0e b0ut me..s0 th0se wh0 read my bl0g,ur lucky..hehehe..kidding..s0,back t0 d main r0ad,i mean main p0int,i played makeup2 td..but i 0nly put dark-c0l0ured eye shad0w 0n my left eyelid,i put l0ts 0f mascara 0n my left eyelashes, put heavy eyeliner 0n my left eye's rim,really black 0ne..damn i l0ok evil..like realy evil.. While f0r my right eye,i dun put any makeup 0n it..i l0ok g0od..pure..inn0cent..
I l0oked int0 d mirr0r, which side m i? Left 0r rite? Evil 0r g0od? I wana b g0od..but when i take a l0ok at my evil l0ok,i smiled..wh0a..n0w dats freaky..i t0ok AN0THER l0ok at my right side, d g0od 0ne, smiled a bit, hmmm..first time in my life i feel im pretty..u n0e, gadis chantek..
Huhu..i think i l0ok better as a g0od girl..i wana b g0od..i ch0se t0 b g0od..i decided t0 b g0od..n0w,my dear evil side,R.I.P..i dun need u n0w..
03 June 2009
C0nfuse
6:49 AM, 4-6-2009
I m c0nfuse..
Is this h0w it supp0se t0 be?
I dun want it t0 be like diz!
I want him back!
*cry*
I m c0nfuse..
Is this h0w it supp0se t0 be?
I dun want it t0 be like diz!
I want him back!
*cry*
Heart Broken
8:57 PM, 3-6-2009
My heart was broken..again..but diz time,i dun think i cn..
My head is spinning..back t0 all d sweet mem0ries we had..t0o many of them.. N0w,i cnt think 0f anything..
S0 many times i hit d keypad 0f my f0n t0 text him,t0 tell him h0w much i l0ve him..h0w much i mis him..h0w much i want him n0w!
But when i hit first letter,cpt2 aku sedarkn diri..we r n0t an item anym0re..dat hurts cuz i dun wana it dat way..
This p0st is stupid..i n0e he d0esnt feel what i m feeling rite n0w..
But i n0e dat he w0nt read my bl0g..dats y i p0st tis s0meh0w..
Huhu..
My heart was broken..again..but diz time,i dun think i cn..
My head is spinning..back t0 all d sweet mem0ries we had..t0o many of them.. N0w,i cnt think 0f anything..
S0 many times i hit d keypad 0f my f0n t0 text him,t0 tell him h0w much i l0ve him..h0w much i mis him..h0w much i want him n0w!
But when i hit first letter,cpt2 aku sedarkn diri..we r n0t an item anym0re..dat hurts cuz i dun wana it dat way..
This p0st is stupid..i n0e he d0esnt feel what i m feeling rite n0w..
But i n0e dat he w0nt read my bl0g..dats y i p0st tis s0meh0w..
Huhu..
01 June 2009
Kekecewaan
6:03 PM, 1-6-09
Kekecewaan..bg aku x dk bwk apa2 maksud kecuali yg aku rasakan hari ni..
Slh aku kah kalau aku tertidur?
Slh aku kah kalau nasib mmg malang?
God,since d 0nly pers0n i cn share evrything d0nt wanna stand by me n0w,i m n0w al0ne..pls help me,my God..take care of me..
Kekecewaan..bg aku x dk bwk apa2 maksud kecuali yg aku rasakan hari ni..
Slh aku kah kalau aku tertidur?
Slh aku kah kalau nasib mmg malang?
God,since d 0nly pers0n i cn share evrything d0nt wanna stand by me n0w,i m n0w al0ne..pls help me,my God..take care of me..
30 May 2009
my love story
once upon a time, there lived a royal by the name of royale... now,he is a tall guy with quite a bad eyesight... he is skinny, lanky and has a way of annoying people with the way he talks.. he likes to argue eventhough, most of the time, he'll actually lose in the argument.. but he is too afraid to admit that he is wrong... hence, proves that royale has quite an ego...he had a little history with soup, who we all expected would end up as his princess... but alas, fate and luck were both absent in their love life.. that was the end of that fairytale...as royale was hunting in his forest, he heard a voice of a girl... she was not talking, she was not singing nor was she sounding like she was crying... wat royale heard was ''boo! boo! boo!''...royale slowly took an arrow and put on the string of his bow, ready to attack in case it was a witch playing tricks in the forest...he was about to shoot his arrow when suddenyly, he saw a beautiful girl with a scarf over her head... her eyes were almond shaped and her lips were pink... she was wearing a beautifully embroidered dress (chanel maybe), the red colour a contrast to her pale skin...royale was in awe of such beauty... nver in his 18 year old life has he seen such a preity girl... he was about to take out his sony ericson phone, when suddenly, the girl spotted him.. the girl called out ''boo!'' to him and she walked towards him.. a naughty smile appearing on her face...and thats how they met....now.. royale and click 5 are together (maybe... no confirmation has been received about this.. but sources claimed to have seen them holding hands and talking softly to each other while looking longingly into each other's eyes)...it's weird isn't it???ive been hanging out with them for most of the time and it never crossed in my mind (or others for that matter) not even once.. that they will be together... an item.. royale and click 5... wow...fate has a weird way of putting our life together, don't u think so?i wonder where my fate would bring me to....
i want it to be like that again,
like the first timelike a happy accident
-happy accident,jason reeves-
quoted from aj
4x4 race, Quarrel, Kisses
11:17 AM, 31-05-2009
wuhuuuuuu......
semalam, i watched 4x4 race anjuran k-cross motorsports and events(ami nye kompeni) n malaysia's ministry of tourism....its good....but i think its quite boring....huhuhu....
btw, i broke my leg or my knee specifically,yesterday...huhuhu.....sumpah saket.....
i hav no idea what to write today....but generallay, im pissed off with sum1....not u bi2....n u know who...its just dat, i dun get whats his real motive is....i mean, i thought bout this last nyte sampai termimpi2 muka budak tu....sipot toi....aku nak mimpi bi2 la!!! why budak tu lak yang muncul!!!!
huhuhuu....adakah bercinta itu salaH? mungkin bagi dia, tapi tak bagi aku....so pls la....stop messing my life with bi2....my bi2 is the only person i love so LIKE HELL I CARE what u gonna say bout me, him, or us. if u said im queen control, its not YOU dat i control....think k.....u and him are sooooo different; which is why i fall for him.....because hes not lyke u...not even a bit...PLUS, he chose to love me, so if anything happened, die tanggung, kau takde kene mengene aite....so watpe kau sibuk?
hmmmmm....bi2....whatever hes going to say to u, plish3, bear this in mind that i am a bitch, but i love you.....i m ur heaven but sumtyme i give u hell aite......huhuhu....
i cant believe i was mad at bi2 because of him....but luckily bi2 stay sa patient as he cud....and he saved us again last nyte...what else can he do but saving me from damages and loving me for life....hes my savior and im his heaven aite......we quarrel A LOT but after dat we kiss each other A LOT too....weird but i lyke it dat way....
dats all.......
nak g belek kaki jap...........
sayang kamu selamanya........
XOXO
wuhuuuuuu......
semalam, i watched 4x4 race anjuran k-cross motorsports and events(ami nye kompeni) n malaysia's ministry of tourism....its good....but i think its quite boring....huhuhu....
btw, i broke my leg or my knee specifically,yesterday...huhuhu.....sumpah saket.....
i hav no idea what to write today....but generallay, im pissed off with sum1....not u bi2....n u know who...its just dat, i dun get whats his real motive is....i mean, i thought bout this last nyte sampai termimpi2 muka budak tu....sipot toi....aku nak mimpi bi2 la!!! why budak tu lak yang muncul!!!!
huhuhuu....adakah bercinta itu salaH? mungkin bagi dia, tapi tak bagi aku....so pls la....stop messing my life with bi2....my bi2 is the only person i love so LIKE HELL I CARE what u gonna say bout me, him, or us. if u said im queen control, its not YOU dat i control....think k.....u and him are sooooo different; which is why i fall for him.....because hes not lyke u...not even a bit...PLUS, he chose to love me, so if anything happened, die tanggung, kau takde kene mengene aite....so watpe kau sibuk?
hmmmmm....bi2....whatever hes going to say to u, plish3, bear this in mind that i am a bitch, but i love you.....i m ur heaven but sumtyme i give u hell aite......huhuhu....
i cant believe i was mad at bi2 because of him....but luckily bi2 stay sa patient as he cud....and he saved us again last nyte...what else can he do but saving me from damages and loving me for life....hes my savior and im his heaven aite......we quarrel A LOT but after dat we kiss each other A LOT too....weird but i lyke it dat way....
dats all.......
nak g belek kaki jap...........
sayang kamu selamanya........
XOXO
Lapar, Rindu, Sedih
3:53 PM, 30-05-2009
Bi2,
I lapaq la..blum mkn lg..pew0t bunyi byk kali dh..tigt lak time kita mkn kt garden cafe kt pas..funny u..
I rindu u sgt..cm nk g lari bli tiket ke pahang..i buat bet0l bru tawu..rdu sgt..
I sedih sgt..u jauh dr i..tamaw gaduh2 lg k..i pny kaki saket..tigt u ska urut..skg x de sapa nk urutkn utk i..huhu..
I hope u miss me like i miss u..
XOXOXO
Ni2 heart bi2
Bi2,
I lapaq la..blum mkn lg..pew0t bunyi byk kali dh..tigt lak time kita mkn kt garden cafe kt pas..funny u..
I rindu u sgt..cm nk g lari bli tiket ke pahang..i buat bet0l bru tawu..rdu sgt..
I sedih sgt..u jauh dr i..tamaw gaduh2 lg k..i pny kaki saket..tigt u ska urut..skg x de sapa nk urutkn utk i..huhu..
I hope u miss me like i miss u..
XOXOXO
Ni2 heart bi2
29 May 2009
4th Day at Ami CHaq'S house
woooooooooooooooooooooooo.....
last nyte was sooooooooooooooooo creeeepy.....
i heard sounds....lots of sounds.....weird sounds.......
babun btol.........
ami and aunty, i dun noe wat time they got back, but around 2:30 Am i went back to my room, leaving the boys sleeping in their parent's room.........i dun noe....maybe i sleep-walking too.....
then, i lay down on my bed, forgot to turn off the aircond...its 20 degree celcius....im so cold....but too sleepy to get up.....just as i wanna close my eyes again..tetibe je guruh mula kedengaran.....wind....damn the wind.....making whistling sound.....then the rain...tapping on mthe window.....i cant sleep.....ba*i betoi......
i dunnow what to do......i dun wana open my eyes......im scared.....
then, i crawled in the selimut.....hoping and praying the rain will stop......in a BIG house like this, i hate rain......
hmmm.......tgk jam kt henpon, 3:30 AM, what the??? i want my sleep.....plish3......
TIBA2< ITU PINTU BILIK AKU TERBUKAK SENDIRI.....damn!damn!damn!damn! aku merangkak turun katil g tolak pintu tu slow2......babun......waaaaaaaaaaaaa....at times like this, i miss my own room.....
then, baring kat katil, baru pasan, BANYAK gila semut merayap atas katil.....aku tingat mimpi aku yang siput khinzir merangkak atas badan.....ba*i.....takot wei....
4:30 AM-------still cannot sleep.......
tetiba tingkap lak wat bunyi......
lam toilet bunyi air........
babun!babun!
i dunnow wat time i sleep........
this morning, daniel knocked the door, i know its already morning.....
yES3!!!!
dah pagi...
so pagi ni.....
bangun....
mandi.....
makan....
jap g p kuala nerang tgk 4X4 race.....
p/s: bi2, kak piah (bibik no1) was fired already...ngah3.....mish3 u......
last nyte was sooooooooooooooooo creeeepy.....
i heard sounds....lots of sounds.....weird sounds.......
babun btol.........
ami and aunty, i dun noe wat time they got back, but around 2:30 Am i went back to my room, leaving the boys sleeping in their parent's room.........i dun noe....maybe i sleep-walking too.....
then, i lay down on my bed, forgot to turn off the aircond...its 20 degree celcius....im so cold....but too sleepy to get up.....just as i wanna close my eyes again..tetibe je guruh mula kedengaran.....wind....damn the wind.....making whistling sound.....then the rain...tapping on mthe window.....i cant sleep.....ba*i betoi......
i dunnow what to do......i dun wana open my eyes......im scared.....
then, i crawled in the selimut.....hoping and praying the rain will stop......in a BIG house like this, i hate rain......
hmmm.......tgk jam kt henpon, 3:30 AM, what the??? i want my sleep.....plish3......
TIBA2< ITU PINTU BILIK AKU TERBUKAK SENDIRI.....damn!damn!damn!damn! aku merangkak turun katil g tolak pintu tu slow2......babun......waaaaaaaaaaaaa....at times like this, i miss my own room.....
then, baring kat katil, baru pasan, BANYAK gila semut merayap atas katil.....aku tingat mimpi aku yang siput khinzir merangkak atas badan.....ba*i.....takot wei....
4:30 AM-------still cannot sleep.......
tetiba tingkap lak wat bunyi......
lam toilet bunyi air........
babun!babun!
i dunnow wat time i sleep........
this morning, daniel knocked the door, i know its already morning.....
yES3!!!!
dah pagi...
so pagi ni.....
bangun....
mandi.....
makan....
jap g p kuala nerang tgk 4X4 race.....
p/s: bi2, kak piah (bibik no1) was fired already...ngah3.....mish3 u......
28 May 2009
Tunku Habsah & Mak Che Menjalara PArt 1
Hmmmmm.....
Just now, i was texting bi2...and suddenly, the name tunku habsah was brought up.....her house is located in front of ami chaq's house.... suddenly, terasa berminat nak tahu lebih lanjut tentang tunku habsah and mak che menjalara....since tunku habsah got sejarah kekeluargaan bau2 bacang ngn keluarga aku...so she can be considered as my realtives la....masa die meninggal pun, anak2 die panggil mama saya bibi (mak cik dalam bhs arab kot)....so there must be blood-connection between me and her aite....setitik darah die ada lam badan aku....huhuhu....i dunow who can i ask bout her and what is her real relationship with Mak Che Menjalara....n who is this mak che menjalara??? her name sounds so classic aite...so i google...and result for mak che menjalara is a lot..........
this is gambar istana pelamin....dulu....tempat tunku abdul rahman (anak manjelara dgn sultan abdul hamid) dilahirkan...
ni gambar istana pelamin sekarang....
ni gambar sultan abdul hamid....
hm.......cari gambar manjelara tak jumpe......
but here is the hubung kait between tunku habsah and mak che menjalara...
Syed Sheh Shahabuddin Bin Syed Abdullah Shahabuddin T.Y.T. Yang Dipertua Negeri Pulau Pinang
Gender: Male
Just now, i was texting bi2...and suddenly, the name tunku habsah was brought up.....her house is located in front of ami chaq's house.... suddenly, terasa berminat nak tahu lebih lanjut tentang tunku habsah and mak che menjalara....since tunku habsah got sejarah kekeluargaan bau2 bacang ngn keluarga aku...so she can be considered as my realtives la....masa die meninggal pun, anak2 die panggil mama saya bibi (mak cik dalam bhs arab kot)....so there must be blood-connection between me and her aite....setitik darah die ada lam badan aku....huhuhu....i dunow who can i ask bout her and what is her real relationship with Mak Che Menjalara....n who is this mak che menjalara??? her name sounds so classic aite...so i google...and result for mak che menjalara is a lot..........
this is gambar istana pelamin....dulu....tempat tunku abdul rahman (anak manjelara dgn sultan abdul hamid) dilahirkan...
ni gambar istana pelamin sekarang....
ni gambar sultan abdul hamid....
hm.......cari gambar manjelara tak jumpe......
but here is the hubung kait between tunku habsah and mak che menjalara...
Syed Sheh Shahabuddin Bin Syed Abdullah Shahabuddin T.Y.T. Yang Dipertua Negeri Pulau Pinang
Gender: Male
Spouse:, Tunku Habsah Binti Almarhum Sultan Abdul Hamid Halim ShahChildren:
Gender: female
Parents:Father: , Sultan Abdul Hamid Halim Shah Ibni Almarhum Sultan Ahmad Tajuddin III D.Y.M.M. Sultan Kedah
Mother: , Makche Manjelara, Syed Nahar Bin Syed Sheh Shahabuddin
after reading this genealogy data i still dun understand.....
but i think my family bersangkut paut ngn mereka ni melalui keturunan syed yang sama iaitu shahabuddin....my mama comes from shahabuddin clan too....yang aku tawu, ada tiga clan syed kt tanah melayu ni; 1)shahabuddin (my clan)
2)jamalullail (contoh terdekat: keturunan sultan perlis)
3)ni aku tak sure, clan al-attas
hm.............
pening seyh....
but for now, aku tunjuk info pasal mak che menjalara dulu lah...
beliau adalah salah seorang daripada isteri sultan kedah...
ikut history kedah, mmg la hubungan kedah dengan siam ni kuat dari dulu...
so menjalara ni, beliau dari keturunan chao phraya maha phrota dari keluarga MON.
so dia ni pelakon dram (makyong la)...so mesti cun melecun kan...dia dijadikan anak angkat oleh tunku halimah, adinida kepada sultan ahmad tajuddin...so bila umo dia 19tahun, dia dijadikan isteri sultan abdul hamid. hasil perkahwinan mereka, ada 12 orang anak,tapi hny 8 orang yang hidup dan salah seorang adalah tunku abdul rahman (bapa kemerdekaan).
ada kisah mengatakan menjalara pernah berbohong 2 kali kepada paduka sultan.
pertama,
bila ada pegawai istana yg pecah amanah, so sultan nak jatuhkan hukuman potong jari dkt pegawai tu dan keluarga dia, tapi pegawai ni mintak ihsan menjalara. so menjalara bohong yang dia mengandung sebab ikut adat melayu masa tu (n skg pun) kalu isteri mengandung suami takleh buat perkara seperti mengail ikan sebab takut mulut anak jadi sumbing cam ikan. so, kalau mengail ikan x leh, apa lagi potong jari. maka, pegawai tu hanya dipenjarakan.
kedua,
selepas ibu kepada menjalara di siam mati, die mintak sultan bina Watt (kuil Buddha) kerana menurut menjalara, apabila ibunya meninggal, sebuah Watt hendaklah dibina untuk menyumbang pahala kepada ibunya. orang dulu2 kan...biasalah...jahil....so paduka sultan pun bina sebuah Watt di Lorong Bakar bata yang masih wujud sampai arini....
n, selain tuh, ada satu bandar kat kuala lumpur yang diberi nama Bandar Menjalara sempena nama Pduka Seri Cik Menjalara, ibu PM malaysia yang pertama.
ha....so tu baru sikit citer bab Mak Che Menjalara neh....belum masuk bab Tunku habsah....
huhu....baru ku tahu...salasilah keluarga ku amat rumit....cemana aku nak pastikan anak cucu aku nanti x lupa moyang poyang depa....kena investigate lg neh.....hehehe....update later k....
3rd Day At amI CHaq's HoUSe
10 AM, 29-05-2009
Huhu..today is d 3rd day i stay in diz BIG house..not so bad though i stil badly wana go home..
Now im updating using my phone..im stil on my bed..i just recovered from fever..n im happy to wake up diz morning without d pain at my tonsil..
Last nyte,i got back home at 2:04 AM..MY GOD! Ami realy work hard for diz 4x4 event..btw,d race is tomorrow..n today is d opening ceremony i guess..i m not sure whether ami n aunty are out or not..
So yesterday i went to k.nerang with aunty n d boys..i was not feeling well at first,but when it came to d part where we had to ride on a jeep to go to the track..my body started to sweat n d temp was decreasing..mayb because of d fresh air..hehe..i rarely go out,just stay in my room.. Hahaha..
Then,nite came by,we had to stay at d homestay house for a while..ami wanted to settle his job first..it seemed like hes doing all d jobs instead of monitoring his workers..yet, he said diz to aunty,
'sy tgk depa besemangat nk buat keja,sy pun besemangat nk buat keja jgk..'
I felt like laughing..kata2 ke-YB-an..huhu..
So,we finaly smpi kt umah..i felt so sleepy n i walked up d stairs straight to my bedroom..without washing my feet n changing my clothes first,like bi2 awez told me,i went straight to bed..n d result is,dat 'thing' came to kacau me again..i just shut my eyes n wont dare to open it till i woke up diz morning..mayb because im too tired kot..haha..or mayb because i watched keliwon earlier dat nite..keh3..
Dats all..today,i dun0 what is d plan..update later..toodles~
P/s: bi2 was so manja wit me last nyte..im so happy dat i dun cre dat thing kacau me..hehe..muah bi2!
Huhu..today is d 3rd day i stay in diz BIG house..not so bad though i stil badly wana go home..
Now im updating using my phone..im stil on my bed..i just recovered from fever..n im happy to wake up diz morning without d pain at my tonsil..
Last nyte,i got back home at 2:04 AM..MY GOD! Ami realy work hard for diz 4x4 event..btw,d race is tomorrow..n today is d opening ceremony i guess..i m not sure whether ami n aunty are out or not..
So yesterday i went to k.nerang with aunty n d boys..i was not feeling well at first,but when it came to d part where we had to ride on a jeep to go to the track..my body started to sweat n d temp was decreasing..mayb because of d fresh air..hehe..i rarely go out,just stay in my room.. Hahaha..
Then,nite came by,we had to stay at d homestay house for a while..ami wanted to settle his job first..it seemed like hes doing all d jobs instead of monitoring his workers..yet, he said diz to aunty,
'sy tgk depa besemangat nk buat keja,sy pun besemangat nk buat keja jgk..'
I felt like laughing..kata2 ke-YB-an..huhu..
So,we finaly smpi kt umah..i felt so sleepy n i walked up d stairs straight to my bedroom..without washing my feet n changing my clothes first,like bi2 awez told me,i went straight to bed..n d result is,dat 'thing' came to kacau me again..i just shut my eyes n wont dare to open it till i woke up diz morning..mayb because im too tired kot..haha..or mayb because i watched keliwon earlier dat nite..keh3..
Dats all..today,i dun0 what is d plan..update later..toodles~
P/s: bi2 was so manja wit me last nyte..im so happy dat i dun cre dat thing kacau me..hehe..muah bi2!
26 May 2009
DAY 1 at AMI CHAQ's HOuSE
12:10 PM, 27-05-2009
when i woke up this morning, i feel so sick. My body is hot. I think i got fever. huhuhuhuhu....sleeping in an airconditioned room is not good for me, i guess.. ami chaq dah keluar kot...aunty pun dah pegi office....syed nadzmi and syed danial already went to school... they will come back probably at 1.05 noon....then only my life wud be miserable with the boys....but at least, with them, i dun feel so lonely...now, in this big house theres only me, syed nadzmil, kak yanti (bibik1) and kak piah(bibik2).....hm....kak piah is not really friendly with me....i smiled to her....she didnt smile back to me....kak yanti is nice.....huhuhuhuhu....just now she gave me medicine and chicken soup.....my tonsil dah membengkak again....the only thing i hate the most when i got fever is the pain at my tonsil....but to undergone an operation to remove it, i dun have the guts dowh....people said after the operation my voice is not gonna be the same....
aiyok...cant wait for the day to end....now i want to lie down with nadzmil beside me...nadzmil is a bit manja with me....maybe because im d only one who like to entertain him....poor him....4 years old with mummy and daddy so busy working.....
i really want to call my bi2...or text him...but i dun wana hurt him....even though i miss him and need him now cuz im not well, still id un wana fight with him....i just wana love him...i dun wana hate him...but i dunnoe.....maybe i behaved badly....im a bitch aite....my mood is like roller coaster....i dun trust people easily...always have doubts....blalabla....hes my only hope to stay strong and my only reason to continue living...if its true dat he misses me and thinks of me all day, i'll be very happy.....
hmmmmmm......hope hes here with me.....
k la.....ubat kak yanti bg ni wat sy high dan ngantuk...nti update lagi k.......
when i woke up this morning, i feel so sick. My body is hot. I think i got fever. huhuhuhuhu....sleeping in an airconditioned room is not good for me, i guess.. ami chaq dah keluar kot...aunty pun dah pegi office....syed nadzmi and syed danial already went to school... they will come back probably at 1.05 noon....then only my life wud be miserable with the boys....but at least, with them, i dun feel so lonely...now, in this big house theres only me, syed nadzmil, kak yanti (bibik1) and kak piah(bibik2).....hm....kak piah is not really friendly with me....i smiled to her....she didnt smile back to me....kak yanti is nice.....huhuhuhuhu....just now she gave me medicine and chicken soup.....my tonsil dah membengkak again....the only thing i hate the most when i got fever is the pain at my tonsil....but to undergone an operation to remove it, i dun have the guts dowh....people said after the operation my voice is not gonna be the same....
aiyok...cant wait for the day to end....now i want to lie down with nadzmil beside me...nadzmil is a bit manja with me....maybe because im d only one who like to entertain him....poor him....4 years old with mummy and daddy so busy working.....
i really want to call my bi2...or text him...but i dun wana hurt him....even though i miss him and need him now cuz im not well, still id un wana fight with him....i just wana love him...i dun wana hate him...but i dunnoe.....maybe i behaved badly....im a bitch aite....my mood is like roller coaster....i dun trust people easily...always have doubts....blalabla....hes my only hope to stay strong and my only reason to continue living...if its true dat he misses me and thinks of me all day, i'll be very happy.....
hmmmmmm......hope hes here with me.....
k la.....ubat kak yanti bg ni wat sy high dan ngantuk...nti update lagi k.......
25 May 2009
Celcom Operator
Last nyte..i cried n cried n cried..i need him..so stupid for me to let him go..buduh betul..i just cried n cried..i dun noe what to do..i called d celcom operator like what mis sal had told us..first i talked bout my mms problem..then d operator asked,
'ada apa2 lg yg boleh sy bantu?'
Dis is it..
My answer,
Hm..i just cried n cried again..i dun noe whether d operator hung up first sbb tetido..when i woke up for subuh..i texted him..saying my feeling..
Then my mum came to my room asking me to pack my clothes because dis evening shes gona send me to my uncle's..
Im confused..i dun noe what i feel..im not hapy yet im not sad..im not neves yet im not xcited..im hollow..feelingless..i need him......
:(
'ada apa2 lg yg boleh sy bantu?'
Dis is it..
My answer,
Hm..i just cried n cried again..i dun noe whether d operator hung up first sbb tetido..when i woke up for subuh..i texted him..saying my feeling..
Then my mum came to my room asking me to pack my clothes because dis evening shes gona send me to my uncle's..
Im confused..i dun noe what i feel..im not hapy yet im not sad..im not neves yet im not xcited..im hollow..feelingless..i need him......
:(
He Loves Me...Not??
He loves me..
He loves me not..
He loves me..
He loves me not..
He loves.........................
Ugh! Whatever! I LOVE HIM!
T.T
He loves me not..
He loves me..
He loves me not..
He loves.........................
Ugh! Whatever! I LOVE HIM!
T.T
24 May 2009
aku ayu
isk3.......
skg neh tgk update blog kat c.c.....
huhuhuhuhu....
arini, oit of sudden, aku decide nak pki skirt yg beli untuk drama arituh....cewah...agak cantik la bg aku.....time jln nk pegi c.c tu dah ada org peewit3 dah....tapi aku wat x tawu je la cuz aku x rasa aku secantik tu...
then....
setibanya aku di c.c.......
aku duk je la kat one of the pc's....
tiba2....x ku sangka......
"WOIT WAN!!!! Hang ka neh????? fuyohhh......pompuannya hang....pa kena hang neh????"
aku terkedu seketika....
agak kurang asam reaction n remark beliau (kawan skolah rendah aku, nama dia afif kamarudin)
aku pun....
"hahahahaha!!! lawak abeh la tu mape....aku baru balek la....kat umah tadak seluaq....suma basuh...."
fuh....jwpn cover line tuh....
"ELEH.....malu2 lak wan.....habaq la hang mmg dah jd pompuan...pas neh, x leh la kami ajak hg p rempit nek moto honda cup hang tuh....satgi kain kembang (skirt aku la tuh) lekat kat rantai moto! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
kwn aku yg bernama paih toyeh lak wat lawak babun....sumpah jahat mereka neh...adakah aku tidak perempuan b4 neh??? kompius weh....
so....aku pun....
"isk! betoi la seluaq aku suma basuh! p sana men jauh2! huh"
sebelum mereka pegi....sempat lagi.....
"rugi kita x ngorat anak kak pah dulu....ya la....dulu igt kan dia jantan......HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"
CIS! nak jugak kutuk aku...lalu aku pun buat panahan mata kejam lg garang.....
"awat hampa ni ha???"
"woit2...lek la....jgn mrh...k2 kami blah....tp kan wan....pakai la camni selalu.....baru pompuan...."
lalu mereka pun pergi sambil ketawa cam jin super power....
phew.....semput aku cari alasan.....jgn la lepas neh jumpak sapa2 lg..........
(",)
skg neh tgk update blog kat c.c.....
huhuhuhuhu....
arini, oit of sudden, aku decide nak pki skirt yg beli untuk drama arituh....cewah...agak cantik la bg aku.....time jln nk pegi c.c tu dah ada org peewit3 dah....tapi aku wat x tawu je la cuz aku x rasa aku secantik tu...
then....
setibanya aku di c.c.......
aku duk je la kat one of the pc's....
tiba2....x ku sangka......
"WOIT WAN!!!! Hang ka neh????? fuyohhh......pompuannya hang....pa kena hang neh????"
aku terkedu seketika....
agak kurang asam reaction n remark beliau (kawan skolah rendah aku, nama dia afif kamarudin)
aku pun....
"hahahahaha!!! lawak abeh la tu mape....aku baru balek la....kat umah tadak seluaq....suma basuh...."
fuh....jwpn cover line tuh....
"ELEH.....malu2 lak wan.....habaq la hang mmg dah jd pompuan...pas neh, x leh la kami ajak hg p rempit nek moto honda cup hang tuh....satgi kain kembang (skirt aku la tuh) lekat kat rantai moto! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA"
kwn aku yg bernama paih toyeh lak wat lawak babun....sumpah jahat mereka neh...adakah aku tidak perempuan b4 neh??? kompius weh....
so....aku pun....
"isk! betoi la seluaq aku suma basuh! p sana men jauh2! huh"
sebelum mereka pegi....sempat lagi.....
"rugi kita x ngorat anak kak pah dulu....ya la....dulu igt kan dia jantan......HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"
CIS! nak jugak kutuk aku...lalu aku pun buat panahan mata kejam lg garang.....
"awat hampa ni ha???"
"woit2...lek la....jgn mrh...k2 kami blah....tp kan wan....pakai la camni selalu.....baru pompuan...."
lalu mereka pun pergi sambil ketawa cam jin super power....
phew.....semput aku cari alasan.....jgn la lepas neh jumpak sapa2 lg..........
(",)
Song of the Day
Resah yang ku
Ubah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti
Meski
Pagi itu menatapi
Akan sunyi tanpamu
Menemani aku sepi
Chorus :
Tanpa..
Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa..
Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa..
Dirimu aku mati
hohoo…
Ulang 2x
Kini benar-benarku rasakan
Dalam benuk hatiku tanpamu
Ku tak mengerti
Takut
Takut jauh dari dirimu
Kan kau tinggalkan aku sendiri
Tanpamu ku mati
Hohoo…
Resah yang ku
Ubah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti
Ulang 2x
Ubah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti
Meski
Pagi itu menatapi
Akan sunyi tanpamu
Menemani aku sepi
Chorus :
Tanpa..
Cintamu aku resah
Tanpa..
Kasihmu aku hampa
Tanpa..
Dirimu aku mati
hohoo…
Ulang 2x
Kini benar-benarku rasakan
Dalam benuk hatiku tanpamu
Ku tak mengerti
Takut
Takut jauh dari dirimu
Kan kau tinggalkan aku sendiri
Tanpamu ku mati
Hohoo…
Resah yang ku
Ubah dalam kata
Melukiskan kesunyian
Tanpa engkau aku tak mengerti
Ulang 2x
22 May 2009
The Apple of My Eye
2:32 PM, 23-05-2009
Now im at my mum's nursery..guess what, bi2, i bjy dodoikn a baby to sleep..i put d baby on my lap n nyanyi2, tepuk2, tba2 baby tu bukak mulut near my bre*st cm nk menyusu..very funny n cute..then i put her in d buaian..bestnye tgk die tdo..i guess i already have d sifat2 keibuan,..huhu..
Now im wondering,how our babies gona look like..2 boys n a girl, or 2 girls n a boy, or 2 boys n 2 girls..or maybe kembar ke..bestnye..cnt wait..my babies wil b d apple of my eye..bcause they are a combination of my soul n his soul..huhu..muah daddy nye..
Watching d baby sleeping makes me feel sleepy too..sleep jap la..
P/s:bi2,nti kita kawen,azim ckp dia nk jd photographer utk wedding kite..pun boleh..hehe..
Now im at my mum's nursery..guess what, bi2, i bjy dodoikn a baby to sleep..i put d baby on my lap n nyanyi2, tepuk2, tba2 baby tu bukak mulut near my bre*st cm nk menyusu..very funny n cute..then i put her in d buaian..bestnye tgk die tdo..i guess i already have d sifat2 keibuan,..huhu..
Now im wondering,how our babies gona look like..2 boys n a girl, or 2 girls n a boy, or 2 boys n 2 girls..or maybe kembar ke..bestnye..cnt wait..my babies wil b d apple of my eye..bcause they are a combination of my soul n his soul..huhu..muah daddy nye..
Watching d baby sleeping makes me feel sleepy too..sleep jap la..
P/s:bi2,nti kita kawen,azim ckp dia nk jd photographer utk wedding kite..pun boleh..hehe..
My Home, My Heaven
11:58 AM, 23-05-2009
Finally,when i open d door of my bedroom..there they are..so cute..i pick badrul first..OMG..i miss his smell..so welcoming..got sum sense of finaly belong to sumone..then i pick sos n kicap..i dunnow dearie..when mummy touch u mummy want to cry..quickly i wrapped mrs blanket around my body..memories of living in hostel came in..huhu..
I realized mummy left u babies for a long time already..
At least my babies stil need me..
But HIM..
Hmm..dunnow..
Does he or doesnt he?
GOD..
I can feel it..
Fading away..
Help us..
Finally,when i open d door of my bedroom..there they are..so cute..i pick badrul first..OMG..i miss his smell..so welcoming..got sum sense of finaly belong to sumone..then i pick sos n kicap..i dunnow dearie..when mummy touch u mummy want to cry..quickly i wrapped mrs blanket around my body..memories of living in hostel came in..huhu..
I realized mummy left u babies for a long time already..
At least my babies stil need me..
But HIM..
Hmm..dunnow..
Does he or doesnt he?
GOD..
I can feel it..
Fading away..
Help us..
Bus
Time mkn2 kt warung tepi terminal bus kajang neh..tiba2 wan zariman kata,
'yang..cepat ekspres! Cepat mati la ea??'
Bie kata,
'ish u ni! X baik la! Adik i nk nek bus mlm ni!'
Wan zariman kata
'nurul nek eagle ekspres..terbang..mane leh eksiden..'
Bie kata
'huh! Amek neh'
Wan zariman,
'ad0i!!!'
Aku?
Gelak jew..
'yang..cepat ekspres! Cepat mati la ea??'
Bie kata,
'ish u ni! X baik la! Adik i nk nek bus mlm ni!'
Wan zariman kata
'nurul nek eagle ekspres..terbang..mane leh eksiden..'
Bie kata
'huh! Amek neh'
Wan zariman,
'ad0i!!!'
Aku?
Gelak jew..
MD ISA BIN ISMAIL
4:43 PM, 22-05-2009
After reading efi's blog,my tears said to me,can i go out? So yes,i let tears rolling down my eyes again..
Efi,ur lucky to have a father..me? I HAD a father..md isa bin ismail..
Abah,hari2 nurul rindu abah..nurul tingin sgt nk jmpa abah..nurul taw,apa pon nurul buat,abah bangga dgn nurul..cuma,atas setiap kejayaan nurul,nurul rasa tekilan x dpt raikan dgn abah..i know ur here sumwhere,sumhow..but..knowing is not enuf..i want to see u face to face..*cry*..
5 sept 1990,nurul lahir kt dunia ni..jd anak bongsu abah..tok kata ms nurul lahir abah x dk kt sisi mama..abah sibuk..tima kaseh letak nama nurul sdp sgt..wan nurul jannah..anak bongsu abah kan..huhu..nurul x ska kwn2 pgl nurul jeny,sbb abah namakan nurul jannah bkn jeny..tp dpa suka..nk wat cena..huhu..
Ms kecik2 dulu..bes sgt..abah balek keja mst bwk nurul ronda2..nurul dok lam raga moto..men2 janggut abah..rindunya..*cry*..abg kalau nk p mana2 mst suh nurul pujuk abah..nurul pujuk bru abah bwk..indah nya zaman kanak2 nurul dgn ada nya ayah mcm abah..
Hinggalah suatu hari..20januari2002..abah meninggal dunia waktu betugas kt istana..ms tu hari jadi sultan kedah..rakyat meraikan hari kelahiran sultan..anak abah ni meratapi hari kematian abah..what an irony..masa tu,nurul igt lg,nurul tny pak njang..
'pak njang, kalau nurul dpt 5A upsr, abah balek dak?'
Inesen kn soalan itu?
Pak njang jwb,
'nurul bdk baik..igt ni pak njang nk habaq..abah x p mana..abah mghadap tuhan..kalau nurul dpt 5A,abah mst seronok anak ksygn dia bjy wpun dia jauh'
Pas pak njang ckp cmtu,nurul diam ja..x phm mksud 'mghadap tuhan'..huhu..nurul blajaq..tp nurul jd nakal..geram bla blek skolah,abah x tgu kt luaq skolah amek nurul..benci sgt..x phm..knp abah x amek nurul..byk kali mama cita..abah dah x dk..tp yg nurul x phm,abah x dk,p mana? Knp tgai nurul?
Tp skg,nurul dh besaq abah..anak abah ni dh umoq 19thn..x pnh sehari nurul lupakn abah..nurul akan sukses demi abah..
Alang2..meh nurul cita pasal menantu abah..hasrul nama dia..bdk pahang..nurul rs byk pesamaan abah ngn dia..wat nurul tetanya2..huhu..knp dia hilang..bezanya..abah kt sana..dia kt sini,mgantikan tmpt abah bg menjaga n menyayangi nurul..abah tgk2 kn dia sama..nurul syg dia sgt abah..
Lega hati ni..rasa mcm bckp ngn abah..nurul syg abah sgt..tima kaseh jg nurul dari awal smpi akhir... :)
After reading efi's blog,my tears said to me,can i go out? So yes,i let tears rolling down my eyes again..
Efi,ur lucky to have a father..me? I HAD a father..md isa bin ismail..
Abah,hari2 nurul rindu abah..nurul tingin sgt nk jmpa abah..nurul taw,apa pon nurul buat,abah bangga dgn nurul..cuma,atas setiap kejayaan nurul,nurul rasa tekilan x dpt raikan dgn abah..i know ur here sumwhere,sumhow..but..knowing is not enuf..i want to see u face to face..*cry*..
5 sept 1990,nurul lahir kt dunia ni..jd anak bongsu abah..tok kata ms nurul lahir abah x dk kt sisi mama..abah sibuk..tima kaseh letak nama nurul sdp sgt..wan nurul jannah..anak bongsu abah kan..huhu..nurul x ska kwn2 pgl nurul jeny,sbb abah namakan nurul jannah bkn jeny..tp dpa suka..nk wat cena..huhu..
Ms kecik2 dulu..bes sgt..abah balek keja mst bwk nurul ronda2..nurul dok lam raga moto..men2 janggut abah..rindunya..*cry*..abg kalau nk p mana2 mst suh nurul pujuk abah..nurul pujuk bru abah bwk..indah nya zaman kanak2 nurul dgn ada nya ayah mcm abah..
Hinggalah suatu hari..20januari2002..abah meninggal dunia waktu betugas kt istana..ms tu hari jadi sultan kedah..rakyat meraikan hari kelahiran sultan..anak abah ni meratapi hari kematian abah..what an irony..masa tu,nurul igt lg,nurul tny pak njang..
'pak njang, kalau nurul dpt 5A upsr, abah balek dak?'
Inesen kn soalan itu?
Pak njang jwb,
'nurul bdk baik..igt ni pak njang nk habaq..abah x p mana..abah mghadap tuhan..kalau nurul dpt 5A,abah mst seronok anak ksygn dia bjy wpun dia jauh'
Pas pak njang ckp cmtu,nurul diam ja..x phm mksud 'mghadap tuhan'..huhu..nurul blajaq..tp nurul jd nakal..geram bla blek skolah,abah x tgu kt luaq skolah amek nurul..benci sgt..x phm..knp abah x amek nurul..byk kali mama cita..abah dah x dk..tp yg nurul x phm,abah x dk,p mana? Knp tgai nurul?
Tp skg,nurul dh besaq abah..anak abah ni dh umoq 19thn..x pnh sehari nurul lupakn abah..nurul akan sukses demi abah..
Alang2..meh nurul cita pasal menantu abah..hasrul nama dia..bdk pahang..nurul rs byk pesamaan abah ngn dia..wat nurul tetanya2..huhu..knp dia hilang..bezanya..abah kt sana..dia kt sini,mgantikan tmpt abah bg menjaga n menyayangi nurul..abah tgk2 kn dia sama..nurul syg dia sgt abah..
Lega hati ni..rasa mcm bckp ngn abah..nurul syg abah sgt..tima kaseh jg nurul dari awal smpi akhir... :)
Next Time and Tomorrow..
Wuhu..tonyte im going back home..cnt wait..eventhough im a bit disappointed cuz x jd balek naik train..but nvm..theres always next time..
Well,comes to d phrase theres awez next time,this terrible tought suddenly came into my mind..what if theres no nxt time? What if theres no more tomorrow?
Imagine....
Living in diz world without ur loved ones..
Or worse..
Leaving ur loved ones to live without u..
Well..while there is still a chance to show ur love n care to ur beloved..just do it now b4 its too late..i try to live my life without regrets..i messed up..bt i fixed it..told him how much i love him b4 i go to bed..kiss him gudnyte in silence cuz he doesnt like to practice our 'morning kis n nyte2 kis' ritual anymore..huhu..i just want him to know dat if theres no more nxt time for me..if theres no more tomorrow for me..i love him just d same as d first time my heart hooked to him..
You people..
Do d same..
Because we never know..
Well,comes to d phrase theres awez next time,this terrible tought suddenly came into my mind..what if theres no nxt time? What if theres no more tomorrow?
Imagine....
Living in diz world without ur loved ones..
Or worse..
Leaving ur loved ones to live without u..
Well..while there is still a chance to show ur love n care to ur beloved..just do it now b4 its too late..i try to live my life without regrets..i messed up..bt i fixed it..told him how much i love him b4 i go to bed..kiss him gudnyte in silence cuz he doesnt like to practice our 'morning kis n nyte2 kis' ritual anymore..huhu..i just want him to know dat if theres no more nxt time for me..if theres no more tomorrow for me..i love him just d same as d first time my heart hooked to him..
You people..
Do d same..
Because we never know..
21 May 2009
Semut Dan Kebun
12:45 AM,22-05-2009
HARI INI DALAM SEJARAH
Pd suatu hari..semut berjalan keseorangan..lalu terjumpa sebuah kebun yg terbiar..semut appy gle..sbb dgn kebun ni,bru idup die ada tujuan..lalu die pun mula la keje keras bersihkn kebun..dia bertekad nk wat kebun bunga..bunga2 cinta..hehe..dia pun semailah baja..n bunga mekar..merah..subur..semut sgt gembira..die x btepuk sblh tgn..happy nye bkn kepalang lg..
Hingga lah ke suatu mlm..
Mlm ni la..semut ni bjalan keseorangan..sekali lagi..tiada arah tuju..meninggalkn kebun bunganya yg dh x merah subur..
Salah semut tu jgk..lupa nk tabur baja..
Jadi semut ni,lps minx maaf kt kebun dia,dia wat keputusan utk merantau sendirian..kebun tu dh jd darah daging dia..tp nak wat cemana..kebun dh x perlukan dia..semut sedar,dia x pdi jg kebun baik2..jd,kerna syg,dia pun pilih utk jd perantau..Kalo sapa2 jumpa kebun ni,tlg jaga kebun tu baik2..
Semut ni harap kebun akan bahagia..cuma semut nk kebun tawu yg tidak ada yg lain yg bleh menandingi cintanya pd kebun..
Semut kecewa..
Semut sedih..
Semut x maw tgl kn kebun sbb kebun ni kebahagiaan buat diri semut..
Tp..
Bertepuk sebelah tgn x kan berbunyi..
Wahai kebun,
Semut minx maaf..
Semut byk cacat celanya..
Semut makhluk Allah yg jijik..
Semut nk mencintai kebun smpi bla2..
Semut x kn lupakan kebun..
Semut sedih,kebun..
...xoxo...
*a true story told to lady of heaven. To kebun,if u happen to read diz,n think u realy need and love semut,contact semut k..*
HARI INI DALAM SEJARAH
Pd suatu hari..semut berjalan keseorangan..lalu terjumpa sebuah kebun yg terbiar..semut appy gle..sbb dgn kebun ni,bru idup die ada tujuan..lalu die pun mula la keje keras bersihkn kebun..dia bertekad nk wat kebun bunga..bunga2 cinta..hehe..dia pun semailah baja..n bunga mekar..merah..subur..semut sgt gembira..die x btepuk sblh tgn..happy nye bkn kepalang lg..
Hingga lah ke suatu mlm..
Mlm ni la..semut ni bjalan keseorangan..sekali lagi..tiada arah tuju..meninggalkn kebun bunganya yg dh x merah subur..
Salah semut tu jgk..lupa nk tabur baja..
Jadi semut ni,lps minx maaf kt kebun dia,dia wat keputusan utk merantau sendirian..kebun tu dh jd darah daging dia..tp nak wat cemana..kebun dh x perlukan dia..semut sedar,dia x pdi jg kebun baik2..jd,kerna syg,dia pun pilih utk jd perantau..Kalo sapa2 jumpa kebun ni,tlg jaga kebun tu baik2..
Semut ni harap kebun akan bahagia..cuma semut nk kebun tawu yg tidak ada yg lain yg bleh menandingi cintanya pd kebun..
Semut kecewa..
Semut sedih..
Semut x maw tgl kn kebun sbb kebun ni kebahagiaan buat diri semut..
Tp..
Bertepuk sebelah tgn x kan berbunyi..
Wahai kebun,
Semut minx maaf..
Semut byk cacat celanya..
Semut makhluk Allah yg jijik..
Semut nk mencintai kebun smpi bla2..
Semut x kn lupakan kebun..
Semut sedih,kebun..
...xoxo...
*a true story told to lady of heaven. To kebun,if u happen to read diz,n think u realy need and love semut,contact semut k..*
Beautiful Disaster
Huhu....
im dissssssaaaaaaassssssssster.....
but a beautiful one.....
i guess......
hahahaha.....
ENJOY BI2
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
im dissssssaaaaaaassssssssster.....
but a beautiful one.....
i guess......
hahahaha.....
ENJOY BI2
He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain't right
It just ain't right
Oh and I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He's magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
I'm longing for love and the logical
But he's only happy hysterical
I'm waiting for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long
He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he's more than I can take
Oh 'cause I don't know
I don't know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
20 May 2009
TRY THIS..
11:24 AM, 21-05-2009
dah abes dah nanges....
1st-cover your hand with your mouth
2nd-think of someone u love
3rd-close your hand...make it into a fist..
4th-Hold ur hand (the fist) to your heart for 5 seconds
5th-he/she will think of u too!! :)
dah abes dah nanges....
1st-cover your hand with your mouth
2nd-think of someone u love
3rd-close your hand...make it into a fist..
4th-Hold ur hand (the fist) to your heart for 5 seconds
5th-he/she will think of u too!! :)
Yesterday....Semalam...Kelmarin...
11:12 AM, 21-05-2009
huhu.....
semalam.....
aku p inteviu medsi...mr izaham shah ismail la inteviu.....maybe buleh kot..... AMIN....
semalam jugak....big fight with him....but then...seperti biasa....we fighted, i punched, yelled, screamed at him....he grabbed my hand so tight that i felt it gonna break into separate parts....n then i said
"u nak x free?"
he said
"tanak...entah kenapa i x leh lepaskan u..."
then he cried sum more....
YA ALLAH.........
im so so sorry....
sorry people called u 'takot awek'....sorry u ngs lg....i tanak....tanak wat u sedih......
i miss you sgt....
*nk p ngs jap*
huhu.....
semalam.....
aku p inteviu medsi...mr izaham shah ismail la inteviu.....maybe buleh kot..... AMIN....
semalam jugak....big fight with him....but then...seperti biasa....we fighted, i punched, yelled, screamed at him....he grabbed my hand so tight that i felt it gonna break into separate parts....n then i said
"u nak x free?"
he said
"tanak...entah kenapa i x leh lepaskan u..."
then he cried sum more....
YA ALLAH.........
im so so sorry....
sorry people called u 'takot awek'....sorry u ngs lg....i tanak....tanak wat u sedih......
i miss you sgt....
*nk p ngs jap*
19 May 2009
Medsi interview
W0ho0o0o..
Today got medsi inteviu at 2 p.m..
Hopefully me n him pass it n got to b together again next sem..
Ya allah..jodoh pertemuan dan rezeki di tgn Mu..
Aku sudah bertemu dengannya..
Cuma pjgkn dan tetapkan lah jodoh ku dgn nya..
Hilangkn rintangan buat ku dan dia hari ni..
Curahkan rezeki dan rahmat mu padaku dan dia..
AMIN....
(",)
Today got medsi inteviu at 2 p.m..
Hopefully me n him pass it n got to b together again next sem..
Ya allah..jodoh pertemuan dan rezeki di tgn Mu..
Aku sudah bertemu dengannya..
Cuma pjgkn dan tetapkan lah jodoh ku dgn nya..
Hilangkn rintangan buat ku dan dia hari ni..
Curahkan rezeki dan rahmat mu padaku dan dia..
AMIN....
(",)
^^HoMe$iCk^^
can i cry?
i am feeling weird...
i miss home...
i miss my bed...
i miss badrul....
i miss sos n kicap...
i miss mrs. blanket....
are they doing fine in my room????
because im not fine at all to be separated from them for such a long time....
all my babies...
wait for mummy k....
i'll be back soon....
n soon, we can do our pillow talk again...
till then take care of yourselves....
dun be noty2....
mummy will come back soon.....
XOXO
18 May 2009
Hati Terluka
09:00 AM, 19-05-2009
Hati aku ni x dak nilai ke?
Knp sering ia dilempar,dicampak,dipijak,disepak,diludah seperti cinta aku x dak nilai..
Tahukah semalaman aku x tido lena?
Tahukah semalaman aku menangis?
Jika x mahu lg cinta dari aku,ckp ja,jgn permainkan perasaan aku mcm nilainya sekupang dua..
Mayb harga diri aku dh ilang
Tapi
Cinta aku 100% pure..
Hati aku ni x dak nilai ke?
Knp sering ia dilempar,dicampak,dipijak,disepak,diludah seperti cinta aku x dak nilai..
Tahukah semalaman aku x tido lena?
Tahukah semalaman aku menangis?
Jika x mahu lg cinta dari aku,ckp ja,jgn permainkan perasaan aku mcm nilainya sekupang dua..
Mayb harga diri aku dh ilang
Tapi
Cinta aku 100% pure..
The Memories (T.T)
1:50 AM, 19-05-2009
Hmmm..now im at ina's house..i cant sleep..i keep thinking back on d past..the memories we had here in ina's house..here,he first met her..n d thought of it makes me feel uncomfortable..uneasy..jealousy? I dont know..hmm..
Just now,after finishing my 'kerja seni',a card for him,3rd month anniversary lei..my fingers hurt cuz terkena hot glue kn taw..adoi..nvm,back to d point..so,after completing d work,i felt thirsty..i went down d stairs..nk p dapuq lei minum ayaq..n stupidly my heart feels n wishes dat when i finally downstairs,theres him,with aj n amri lepaking..like how we used to when we were here..then i tingat..hes at pahang dowh..shit..n im here alone with ina..no one else here..not even him..so at dapuq,i hav my drinks,then i stopped. I drank in darknes,i forgot to switch on d light..despite my fear to be in darkness,i forgot..cuz im thinking bout him..then..tiba2 rs mcm dia kt ruang tamu tgh gelak kn aku ms dia tgk aku teraba-raba cr suis lampu..ya Allah..aku rindu padanya..
Theres so many memories here..
His with her..
Me with him..
Suddenly i felt greatful to God,for making me met him..n united us here at ina's house..i miss him so much..i really want to see him now..ya Allah,rinduku x tertahan lagi..
N now im typing diz post with tears rolling down my cheeks..tangisan dalam kerinduan..huhu..ya Allah,sampaikan rinduku pd dia..katakn pd dia aku rindu sgt..hope he misses me like i miss him........
Hmmm..now im at ina's house..i cant sleep..i keep thinking back on d past..the memories we had here in ina's house..here,he first met her..n d thought of it makes me feel uncomfortable..uneasy..jealousy? I dont know..hmm..
Just now,after finishing my 'kerja seni',a card for him,3rd month anniversary lei..my fingers hurt cuz terkena hot glue kn taw..adoi..nvm,back to d point..so,after completing d work,i felt thirsty..i went down d stairs..nk p dapuq lei minum ayaq..n stupidly my heart feels n wishes dat when i finally downstairs,theres him,with aj n amri lepaking..like how we used to when we were here..then i tingat..hes at pahang dowh..shit..n im here alone with ina..no one else here..not even him..so at dapuq,i hav my drinks,then i stopped. I drank in darknes,i forgot to switch on d light..despite my fear to be in darkness,i forgot..cuz im thinking bout him..then..tiba2 rs mcm dia kt ruang tamu tgh gelak kn aku ms dia tgk aku teraba-raba cr suis lampu..ya Allah..aku rindu padanya..
Theres so many memories here..
His with her..
Me with him..
Suddenly i felt greatful to God,for making me met him..n united us here at ina's house..i miss him so much..i really want to see him now..ya Allah,rinduku x tertahan lagi..
N now im typing diz post with tears rolling down my cheeks..tangisan dalam kerinduan..huhu..ya Allah,sampaikan rinduku pd dia..katakn pd dia aku rindu sgt..hope he misses me like i miss him........
17 May 2009
the symptoms of TRUE LOVE
1:14 PM, 18-05-2009
people said true love comes just once in a lifetime..
and when it comes..
1)we cant help to feel our hearts beat faster...
2)we cant help to feel our body sweats in a cold place..
3)we cant help to use facial wash as toothpaste in the morning..
4)we cant help to just think bout him/her.....
ive experienced all the symptoms above especially the third and fourth when i met my savior....
hes my true love??????
BITCH's TEARS
11:53 AM, 18-5-2009
well....this bitch cries k.....aku ni bitch....tapi yang berhati perut sikit la.....im trying to understand things...love...why im awez unlucky in this thing.....u see....laki seme lari tinggal aku dowh....sumpah pathetic....tapi, one reason is dat im loyal to anyone i love....thats why i ended up being left by them.....B*BI....adusssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss......aku letih dowh menangis.....hari2 kene menangis......dulu aku tak mcm ni.....dulu aku bleh thn.....B*BI100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000X!!!!!!!!!
this bitch cries because....
she has nothing else that she can do to win his heart....
she feels hopeless....
she feels extra super bitchy....
she wants things that she knows she wont get it even smpi hujung nyawa....
she wants his abah....
dah ar....selamat pagi dunia....selamat malam cinta....(apa aku meracau neh)
well....this bitch cries k.....aku ni bitch....tapi yang berhati perut sikit la.....im trying to understand things...love...why im awez unlucky in this thing.....u see....laki seme lari tinggal aku dowh....sumpah pathetic....tapi, one reason is dat im loyal to anyone i love....thats why i ended up being left by them.....B*BI....adusssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss......aku letih dowh menangis.....hari2 kene menangis......dulu aku tak mcm ni.....dulu aku bleh thn.....B*BI100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000X!!!!!!!!!
this bitch cries because....
she has nothing else that she can do to win his heart....
she feels hopeless....
she feels extra super bitchy....
she wants things that she knows she wont get it even smpi hujung nyawa....
she wants his abah....
dah ar....selamat pagi dunia....selamat malam cinta....(apa aku meracau neh)
How To Love A Girl?
hehehehehehehe......
a girl like me is hard to predict aite.....im perfectionist in certain things such as FOOD....n i when it comes to love....im 'a bit' kinda jealous one....so what???? i love him,so,i can be jealous aite??
i had awez been dreaming my guy will do this to me....hes nice....but sumtymes hes like sengaja ja cari pasal.....so bi2....this is for you....read....learn....understand......PLISH3!!!
*what a boyfriend SHUD do?*
• Grab her neck when you kiss her, it's a real turn on. Not her butt/boobs. (OPTIONAL)
• Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.
• When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go then kiss her
• When she says she's ok dont believe it talk with her
• Never cheat on her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
• Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
• Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
• Treat her like a person and not something to show off for
• Tease her and let her tease you back.
• Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• Watch her favorite movie with her.
• Let her wear your clothes.
• When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
• Let her know she's important.
• Kiss her in the pouring rain.
• When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?".
so.........
bukannya susah punnnn....cuma if we really3 love sum1 anything impossible we can make it possible for him/her....isnt thats how it supposed to be?
im not trying to change him....invade his privacy....but if im in his life...sharing life....sharing heart...then how come theres privacy? dunnow la......
bi2....im a bitch...i know...im a slut....maybe...huhu...i m not sure....but one thing this bitch sure bout herself is that she has a heart..and it has been given to a guy...you....eventhough the heart is bitch's but bitch=person....and that person,u told me u love so much...so can you think how to treat a person u love so much? i already tried everything i cud......now its up to u.......
****HEART YOU FOREVER****
a girl like me is hard to predict aite.....im perfectionist in certain things such as FOOD....n i when it comes to love....im 'a bit' kinda jealous one....so what???? i love him,so,i can be jealous aite??
i had awez been dreaming my guy will do this to me....hes nice....but sumtymes hes like sengaja ja cari pasal.....so bi2....this is for you....read....learn....understand......PLISH3!!!
*what a boyfriend SHUD do?*
• Grab her neck when you kiss her, it's a real turn on. Not her butt/boobs. (OPTIONAL)
• Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.
• When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go then kiss her
• When she says she's ok dont believe it talk with her
• Never cheat on her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
• Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
• Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
• Treat her like a person and not something to show off for
• Tease her and let her tease you back.
• Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• Watch her favorite movie with her.
• Let her wear your clothes.
• When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.
• Let her know she's important.
• Kiss her in the pouring rain.
• When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking babe?".
so.........
bukannya susah punnnn....cuma if we really3 love sum1 anything impossible we can make it possible for him/her....isnt thats how it supposed to be?
im not trying to change him....invade his privacy....but if im in his life...sharing life....sharing heart...then how come theres privacy? dunnow la......
bi2....im a bitch...i know...im a slut....maybe...huhu...i m not sure....but one thing this bitch sure bout herself is that she has a heart..and it has been given to a guy...you....eventhough the heart is bitch's but bitch=person....and that person,u told me u love so much...so can you think how to treat a person u love so much? i already tried everything i cud......now its up to u.......
****HEART YOU FOREVER****
16 May 2009
CONFESSION OF THE HUMBLEST SERVANT
i just woke up....now is 7:30 AM.....nevermind.....because i had a very NICE and SWEEEEEEET dream after having nightmares on the past three nites.....another thing is my head....no longer aches......my head now....calm....relaaaax...just like what i want....ALHAMDULILLAH....thank you Allah......
It turns out to be talking directly to Him through my solat and doa really makes my head and heart feel lighter....thanx *afaf*....well, ive been having lots of problems lately...minda x tenang dowh....jiwa kacau....keje setan la neh...everything i did went wrong....everything he did seemed wrong to me....and then it came to a level that i felt like i dun want to live anymore, forgetting or perhaps rejecting ALL plans He made for me when i was first born and sent into my mom's womb...at that moment, i felt like nobody loves me, nobody wants me, nobody appreciates me...BUT it is all wrong...at my weakest moment, AFAF was there, *HASRUL* was there, evev HAZIQ NEPAL was there....giving me all kinds of support...talking bout alone ryte....at that time i wonder what You want me to do if i continue living?I guess, i know d answer now..
I am sinful, the most SINFULLEST servant to You...and thats why You still give me d chance to clean myself, my soul, from the sin before i went up there, to meet You, and to be reunited with my father...damn, im crying now...
And maybe You want me to see that many people love me...im not sure bout my family....but hasrul,afaf, both of u love me more than i thought...im sorry...i still dunnow WHY you people love me but i think thats why i love you both so much....
Before, ive committed a great sin, that makes me feel shameful to talk to Him, u know, nak berdoa kepada Dia rasa malu...untuk duduk sujud semula di sejadah rasa malu....im not ready....this is true....i forgot You for such a long time....but You never forgot me....theres so many things i wanna tell You...byk aku nak mengadu kepada-Mu...but i have to prepare myself first...to make sure i am qualified to see You....to meet You...to talk to You....again....i have to convince myself that You welcome me back....i am afraid...n i dun want to seek for Your help only when im in difficulties....i want to share my joy with You too...not my pain only....
And then, Your light shone through my dream....like *hasrul* said...mimpi
hidayah...again....thank you Allah.....i got it now...i got the whole concept....aku nak berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat....aku nak bahagia di dunia dan di akhirat....its weird, but, now i understand...what *hasrul* wants me to feel it, to understand it.....the thing he firstly managed to feel and understand before me...the calmness...it even blow away my headache....thank you Allah...O ALLAH.... Forgive my sins.....
Protect me from the devils....
Pour me, my life, what i did, or will do, with Your blessings...
Forgive his sins....
Protect him from the devils...
Pour him, his life, what he did, or will do, with Your blessings...
Forgive her sins....
Ptotect her from the devils......
Pour her, her life, what she did, or will do, with Your blessings....
Send us Your guidance...
so that we wont turn our back from You again....
Unite my heart and his heart...
Mortalized our love here in the world and also when we died,
PLEASE
Give us the chance to climb the steps to Your heaven together.....
Wahai Tuhanku Aku Tidak layak untuk syurgaMuTetapi aku tidak pula sanggup menanggung siksa NerakaMu
Dari itu kurniakanlah ampunan kepadaku ampunkanlah Dosa ku Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Pengampun Dosa-Dosa besar
Dosa-dosaku bagaikan pepasir di pantai
terimalah taubatku wahai Tuhan yang Maha Tinggi
Dan usiaku berkurangan setiap hari
sedangkan dosaku pula bertambah setiap masa
Tuhanku, hambaMu yang sering melakukan maksiat telah datang kepadaMu
Sentiasa membuat dosa, dan sesungguhnya telah berdoa kepadaMu
Jika Kau ampunkan, maka itu adalah hakMu
Dan jika Kau tinggalkan, maka siapa lagi yang hendak kami harapkan sepertiMu...
thanx my savior....
i have changed....from better to worse? or from worse to better? im not sure.... i have caused him a lot of troubles lately......why cant i be better for him....shits happened....yes it did....but y when it comes to me, it happened too often.....well, i admit dat im not a perfect human being....and so do other people....but y i feel like im d worst of all???? only with him, i feel so good, so pretty, so all nice things.....but when he did some teeny weenie smallie little mistakes, i lose my head and get mad all over him like he just said i m a bitch...got what i mean? duh..........my mood is unpredictable...poor him...has to deal with my roller coaster emotions.........nags.........shits.......craps....aiyo....its not that i want to dear, but sometimes it just happened.......i dun want u to be upset with me.....im so sorry.........
but......
i wanna say thanks to you from the bottom of my heart because.....
1) u still accept me as you loved ones even with my flaws and all....
2) still saying 'i love u' when i asked u to get out from my life...
3) still calling me ur 'honey' even i called u 'hang' and 'kau'......
4) still giving me reasons to live when all i want is just die....
5) when all other people just turned their back from me, u r still there, in front of me, smiling, reaching to my hand.....
i will awez remember these words from you....
* ur always heaven, hot, n cute evrytime i see ur face b4 i go to sleep.....*
* do u know tat everytime u hold my arm, ur eyes r like moon tat shimmering so bright... *
* liked i said, if u fall in love with me, im da only one who can catch u n place u in my heart because i only hv one heart.... *
my last words are... pls.....whenever i lose my head again....dun go away from me.....pls remember i only love you..............................
thanx, my savior....
be my savior forever....
be my guardian angel....
be my papa......
show me guidance whenever i lost my way to Him.........
u r my only hope..........
15 May 2009
HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY
MORNING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
cis....bangun je saket kepala.....tensen betul....neway, happy teacher's day.........
Di sini saya ingin mengucapkan selamat hari guru dan terima ksaih kepda :
1. MD. ISA BIN ISMAIL...guru subjek kehidupan terbaik.... ;)
2. CHEGU SAODAH...guru tadika saya....
3. CHEGU HASNAH....guru darjah 1...
4. TEACHER MASTURA....guru bahassa inggeris...
5. TEACHER LIM GAIK HONG...guru muzik...without you i wont be able to play keyboard....
6. CHEGU NORAZLIN...guru darjah 5 and 6 yg mendenda sy berdiri atas kerusi atas sebab2 yg x bleh dinyatakan.......
7.CHEGU SUZAHARIAH...guru maths...fuhh....sebab chegu la sy pndi tambah, tolak, darab, bahagi, kira peratus....bla3......
8. CHEGU RAFIDZAH.....memaksa sy masuk aerobik time djh 5....aiyo.....not to mention zapin time djh 3....huhuhuhu...
9. SIR ALEX....ajaq english darjah 3....heard u already married....melepas aku.....aiyak....
10. CHEGU AMRAN....slalu bg surat PIBG kt sy....and men pingpong ngn sy bila mama amek lambat....hahaha....tp sy slalu kalah....
11. SIR YAAKATH ALI...pksa sy masuk olahraga....4x100 dowh....team aku dpt no.2....pdn muka,paksa lg....hahahahaha....
12. CHEGU BADARIAH....ajaq BM form1......n then u got transported to sumwhere else.....sob3...
13. CHEGU FARIDAH WAHAB...ajaq sy subjek sejarah form 1 smpi form 3....x penah sy dapat C kan chegu.... :)
14. CHEGU NAZMAH.....slalu marah sy.....sy tak bermaksud nk dapat C dlm maths....huhu....sbb tu sy ponteng.....hahahaha.....beza kan sy ngn wan maisarah n fathullah.....sy lg best.....hahahaha...
15. MADAM FOO.. u rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur my seken mom........hehehehehehe......
16. CHEGU REMOS....sy lupa nama sebenar chegu.....tp sy dan kwn2 sy yakni aiza, choliah, amyra, dan cibedah syg chegu wpun kami ponteng kelas chegu slalu.......
15. MR ANG...chegu physics sy....anjing nye bernama wong...u r d only chegu yg called me NURUL.....hahahahaha.....sy pndi fizik kn......tp sory sy ponteng kelas.....kautim la.....
16. MISS TAN LEY CHAN....u awez said to me..."u forgot to bring ur brain eaa????" n FYI, ive awez wanted to answer "i dun forget to bring it, just forget to use it...."hahahahahaha...but awez scared to answer back u....because of u, i got A2 for chemistry in SPM u know.....hope u know...me not stooopid....hehehehehehe....
and now......the wardens.....
1. USTAZ ISMAIL....hehehe....kami sekumpulan pnh wat aksi rambo kt kebun pak non dlm telekung sbb nak lari balik mkn morey awai.....bkn tak maw terawih ustaz.....morey tu sdp sgt mlm tu.....ampunkan kami.....n sory la slalu boikot surau.......sy bkn tamaw p subuh kt surau tapi tilam x izinkn....ahaks.... :P
2. PAK JOE....slalu rotan sy....satu yg sy igt smpi mati is chegu rotan sy sbb sy men mercun sebelum siap2 g skolah waktu bulan posa......hina sgt kah perbuatan sy itu???hhuhuhuhuhu...muah pak jo.....
3. CHEGU MIAH...now ur gone....AL FATIHAH..... :(
4. CHEGU SANUSI...sempoi abeh.....siap tlg belikan sy bege lg....sy thutang budi ngn chegu....
5. CHEGU NORAINI...sy minx ampun...geng sy pgl chegu raini raikonen...huhuhu...sapa suh chegu bwk moto honda cup rempit meh skolah....huhuhu...maaflah...selalu lwn cakap chegu...bukan niat kami nak nyorok lam loker, toilet, stor baldi dan kebun pak non time roll call n prep.....tapi cambest lak tengok chegu cari kami x jumpa...msti smpi skg chegu tak taw mana kami nyorok kan....time roll call n prep ja ilang....hahahahaha....dun wory, kami dah turunkan ilmu tu kat juniors yg kami rs akan meneruskan legacy geng butet...hehehehehe.....
6. PAK NON...pak non kalu meh asrama bukan kesah ngn kami....tau nak date ngn pokok kat kebun ja......cis.......siap suh kami siram pokok lg.....bila kami balek sekolah kami selalu terpaksa men istana takeshi sbb kena cross kebun pak non yg semak tu every time nak balek hotel kami (hostel)....adventurous hidup kami sbb pak non....hehehehehe....
next is.......
1. PUAN AZIZAH RASOL....huh, pengetua pompuan kt SMKSB....letih la ngelak chegu tiap kali nak p skolah....but u caught me....sy dirotan oleh chegu sbb tak turun solat subuh kat surau time tingkatan 2...we r rivals since that....remember u called me WAN NURUL TIDUR? byk la tidur....hehehe...at least chegu ingat sy sampai form 5 kn2? hehehehehehe........
2. PUAN MISKIYAH....sbb chegu la sy dicubit oleh mak sy sepanjang jalan dari kulim ke umah....adus.......chegu, sy cuma fly balek umah aiza....bkn g disko ngn mat rempit.....uhuhuhuhu...sedih betul kami time tuh......dibuang dari asrama oleh sebab chegu la.....prejudis terhadap anak liar seperti kami....hehehhehe...tp sy syg chegu sbb chegu lah org yg bertanggungjawab buat sy cipta rekod drpd 3 orang anak-anak md isa yg skolah kat badlishah, sy je yg dibuang asrama then diterima semula siap jd BIRO DISIPLIN lg....huhuhuhu...pencapaian hebat....
then...to all my lecturers from sem1 until sem2...thanks........
when i write bout my secondary school's teachers.....it really brings me back to my life back then....so calm....carefree....we did lot of mischievs and break all the rules.....not because we hated the school and teachers (part of it) but because we feel so like we are living in our own world there....mst tak paham kn? lu pikirlah sendiri...but then,yeah,hostel and school of SMK SULTAN BADLISHAH really were my home....................................................................idup BADLISHAH!!!!!!
p/s: dah kurang headache, g tido balek... tata....
cis....bangun je saket kepala.....tensen betul....neway, happy teacher's day.........
Di sini saya ingin mengucapkan selamat hari guru dan terima ksaih kepda :
1. MD. ISA BIN ISMAIL...guru subjek kehidupan terbaik.... ;)
2. CHEGU SAODAH...guru tadika saya....
3. CHEGU HASNAH....guru darjah 1...
4. TEACHER MASTURA....guru bahassa inggeris...
5. TEACHER LIM GAIK HONG...guru muzik...without you i wont be able to play keyboard....
6. CHEGU NORAZLIN...guru darjah 5 and 6 yg mendenda sy berdiri atas kerusi atas sebab2 yg x bleh dinyatakan.......
7.CHEGU SUZAHARIAH...guru maths...fuhh....sebab chegu la sy pndi tambah, tolak, darab, bahagi, kira peratus....bla3......
8. CHEGU RAFIDZAH.....memaksa sy masuk aerobik time djh 5....aiyo.....not to mention zapin time djh 3....huhuhuhu...
9. SIR ALEX....ajaq english darjah 3....heard u already married....melepas aku.....aiyak....
10. CHEGU AMRAN....slalu bg surat PIBG kt sy....and men pingpong ngn sy bila mama amek lambat....hahaha....tp sy slalu kalah....
11. SIR YAAKATH ALI...pksa sy masuk olahraga....4x100 dowh....team aku dpt no.2....pdn muka,paksa lg....hahahahaha....
12. CHEGU BADARIAH....ajaq BM form1......n then u got transported to sumwhere else.....sob3...
13. CHEGU FARIDAH WAHAB...ajaq sy subjek sejarah form 1 smpi form 3....x penah sy dapat C kan chegu.... :)
14. CHEGU NAZMAH.....slalu marah sy.....sy tak bermaksud nk dapat C dlm maths....huhu....sbb tu sy ponteng.....hahahaha.....beza kan sy ngn wan maisarah n fathullah.....sy lg best.....hahahaha...
15. MADAM FOO.. u rock!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ur my seken mom........hehehehehehe......
16. CHEGU REMOS....sy lupa nama sebenar chegu.....tp sy dan kwn2 sy yakni aiza, choliah, amyra, dan cibedah syg chegu wpun kami ponteng kelas chegu slalu.......
15. MR ANG...chegu physics sy....anjing nye bernama wong...u r d only chegu yg called me NURUL.....hahahahaha.....sy pndi fizik kn......tp sory sy ponteng kelas.....kautim la.....
16. MISS TAN LEY CHAN....u awez said to me..."u forgot to bring ur brain eaa????" n FYI, ive awez wanted to answer "i dun forget to bring it, just forget to use it...."hahahahahaha...but awez scared to answer back u....because of u, i got A2 for chemistry in SPM u know.....hope u know...me not stooopid....hehehehehehe....
and now......the wardens.....
1. USTAZ ISMAIL....hehehe....kami sekumpulan pnh wat aksi rambo kt kebun pak non dlm telekung sbb nak lari balik mkn morey awai.....bkn tak maw terawih ustaz.....morey tu sdp sgt mlm tu.....ampunkan kami.....n sory la slalu boikot surau.......sy bkn tamaw p subuh kt surau tapi tilam x izinkn....ahaks.... :P
2. PAK JOE....slalu rotan sy....satu yg sy igt smpi mati is chegu rotan sy sbb sy men mercun sebelum siap2 g skolah waktu bulan posa......hina sgt kah perbuatan sy itu???hhuhuhuhuhu...muah pak jo.....
3. CHEGU MIAH...now ur gone....AL FATIHAH..... :(
4. CHEGU SANUSI...sempoi abeh.....siap tlg belikan sy bege lg....sy thutang budi ngn chegu....
5. CHEGU NORAINI...sy minx ampun...geng sy pgl chegu raini raikonen...huhuhu...sapa suh chegu bwk moto honda cup rempit meh skolah....huhuhu...maaflah...selalu lwn cakap chegu...bukan niat kami nak nyorok lam loker, toilet, stor baldi dan kebun pak non time roll call n prep.....tapi cambest lak tengok chegu cari kami x jumpa...msti smpi skg chegu tak taw mana kami nyorok kan....time roll call n prep ja ilang....hahahahaha....dun wory, kami dah turunkan ilmu tu kat juniors yg kami rs akan meneruskan legacy geng butet...hehehehehe.....
6. PAK NON...pak non kalu meh asrama bukan kesah ngn kami....tau nak date ngn pokok kat kebun ja......cis.......siap suh kami siram pokok lg.....bila kami balek sekolah kami selalu terpaksa men istana takeshi sbb kena cross kebun pak non yg semak tu every time nak balek hotel kami (hostel)....adventurous hidup kami sbb pak non....hehehehehe....
next is.......
1. PUAN AZIZAH RASOL....huh, pengetua pompuan kt SMKSB....letih la ngelak chegu tiap kali nak p skolah....but u caught me....sy dirotan oleh chegu sbb tak turun solat subuh kat surau time tingkatan 2...we r rivals since that....remember u called me WAN NURUL TIDUR? byk la tidur....hehehe...at least chegu ingat sy sampai form 5 kn2? hehehehehehe........
2. PUAN MISKIYAH....sbb chegu la sy dicubit oleh mak sy sepanjang jalan dari kulim ke umah....adus.......chegu, sy cuma fly balek umah aiza....bkn g disko ngn mat rempit.....uhuhuhuhu...sedih betul kami time tuh......dibuang dari asrama oleh sebab chegu la.....prejudis terhadap anak liar seperti kami....hehehhehe...tp sy syg chegu sbb chegu lah org yg bertanggungjawab buat sy cipta rekod drpd 3 orang anak-anak md isa yg skolah kat badlishah, sy je yg dibuang asrama then diterima semula siap jd BIRO DISIPLIN lg....huhuhuhu...pencapaian hebat....
then...to all my lecturers from sem1 until sem2...thanks........
when i write bout my secondary school's teachers.....it really brings me back to my life back then....so calm....carefree....we did lot of mischievs and break all the rules.....not because we hated the school and teachers (part of it) but because we feel so like we are living in our own world there....mst tak paham kn? lu pikirlah sendiri...but then,yeah,hostel and school of SMK SULTAN BADLISHAH really were my home....................................................................idup BADLISHAH!!!!!!
p/s: dah kurang headache, g tido balek... tata....
14 May 2009
Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word....
yeah2.....
i know........
we did mistakes.....
then we said sorry.....
but the point is how much do we realized what mistake we made and how much it hurts the person....
im not gud with words....
but believe me......
hasrul....
afaf.....
SORRY.....
i did something stupid....
n caused u both lots of troubles....
hasrul,
so sorry for your nightmares............................................................
i know........
we did mistakes.....
then we said sorry.....
but the point is how much do we realized what mistake we made and how much it hurts the person....
im not gud with words....
but believe me......
hasrul....
afaf.....
SORRY.....
i did something stupid....
n caused u both lots of troubles....
hasrul,
so sorry for your nightmares............................................................
Song For You
when i was watching hitz.tv.....there was beyonce's vid clip, the halo song......suddenly i felt like im such a loser in everything i did...as a friend....as a lover.....i cant see y i cant be better for them....i want but everytime i tried i found the other part of me like avoiding me from doing so....check out the lyrics.... this song is for you.....MOHD HASRUL BIN OTHMAN.....im so sorry for my bad behaviour for last three days...... ;-(
Remember those walls I built?
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But, I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I'm never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Halo, ooh ooh, oh........
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh oh.......
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh oh.......
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But, I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I ain't never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm taking
I'm never gonna shut you out!
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Halo, ooh ooh.....
Halo, ooh ooh, oh........
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby, I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby, I can feel your halo
I pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh oh.......
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
I can feel your halo
I can see your halo
Halo, ooh oh.......
Wishlist before I die (",)
1. I wana get married first, *to cerol,ofkos*
2. Get pregnant, beranak, see how my anaks will look like...hahaha..
3. Visit Paris, Japan, Disneyland...i really want to go to these places, alone or with sum1, i dun care,
as long as, i get d chance to go there......perhaps during winter,autumn or spring....ive had enuf summer in malaysia...
4. Bought a double-storey house for myself, under my name, using my money. gotta prove to that particular pipel i cn be succesful too..
5. Bought new car for my mama. whatever car she wants, i wish i can buy for her before i die...
6. To be able to see aisyah afia grow up at least until she is 21yrs old.....people said she behaves,looks,talks like me when i was still a toddler until now.
Rite now...i cn only think of this....wait for PART 2 k.....hehe..
My BFF *afaf*
Dear afaf.....
I know ive been such a loser as a friend.....
Ignoring u for these past few months....
I have my own reasons to do so.......
I'm sorry ive hurt u.....
BUT!!!!
I never meant to do so....
forgive me if u felt im not close to u anymore.....
i awez need u afaf......
u see, NOBODY can accept me d way i am; GOOD and BAD the way u did, except, cerol kot..
hahahahaha.........
happy to be able to hug u again.....
i love u as much as u love me....
well, im not as gud as bear2 i thought,
but,
i am awez honest to u aite.......
none of what i did, i hide from u.....
everything u shud noe bout me, ive already told u......
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu....
dear afaf..
thanx for being there for me when im at the stupidest moment in my life (u know this,so,lets just keep this as a secret between us k).....when i dun want to be here anymore, u giv me reasons on why i shud stay....
thanx....
i will remember u till the end of life as my only BEST FRIEND.....
u are true definition of BEST FRIEND FOREVER....
XOXO
I know ive been such a loser as a friend.....
Ignoring u for these past few months....
I have my own reasons to do so.......
I'm sorry ive hurt u.....
BUT!!!!
I never meant to do so....
forgive me if u felt im not close to u anymore.....
i awez need u afaf......
u see, NOBODY can accept me d way i am; GOOD and BAD the way u did, except, cerol kot..
hahahahaha.........
happy to be able to hug u again.....
i love u as much as u love me....
well, im not as gud as bear2 i thought,
but,
i am awez honest to u aite.......
none of what i did, i hide from u.....
everything u shud noe bout me, ive already told u......
huhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu....
dear afaf..
thanx for being there for me when im at the stupidest moment in my life (u know this,so,lets just keep this as a secret between us k).....when i dun want to be here anymore, u giv me reasons on why i shud stay....
thanx....
i will remember u till the end of life as my only BEST FRIEND.....
u are true definition of BEST FRIEND FOREVER....
XOXO
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