DAY 1 at AMI CHAQ's HOuSE

12:10 PM, 27-05-2009

when i woke up this morning, i feel so sick. My body is hot. I think i got fever. huhuhuhuhu....sleeping in an airconditioned room is not good for me, i guess.. ami chaq dah keluar kot...aunty pun dah pegi office....syed nadzmi and syed danial already went to school... they will come back probably at 1.05 noon....then only my life wud be miserable with the boys....but at least, with them, i dun feel so lonely...now, in this big house theres only me, syed nadzmil, kak yanti (bibik1) and kak piah(bibik2).....hm....kak piah is not really friendly with me....i smiled to her....she didnt smile back to me....kak yanti is nice.....huhuhuhuhu....just now she gave me medicine and chicken soup.....my tonsil dah membengkak again....the only thing i hate the most when i got fever is the pain at my tonsil....but to undergone an operation to remove it, i dun have the guts dowh....people said after the operation my voice is not gonna be the same....

aiyok...cant wait for the day to end....now i want to lie down with nadzmil beside me...nadzmil is a bit manja with me....maybe because im d only one who like to entertain him....poor him....4 years old with mummy and daddy so busy working.....

i really want to call my bi2...or text him...but i dun wana hurt him....even though i miss him and need him now cuz im not well, still id un wana fight with him....i just wana love him...i dun wana hate him...but i dunnoe.....maybe i behaved badly....im a bitch aite....my mood is like roller coaster....i dun trust people easily...always have doubts....blalabla....hes my only hope to stay strong and my only reason to continue living...if its true dat he misses me and thinks of me all day, i'll be very happy.....

hmmmmmm......hope hes here with me.....

k la.....ubat kak yanti bg ni wat sy high dan ngantuk...nti update lagi k.......