Lagu2 baru

7:42 am, 26-6-09

Hehe. . .
Hehe. . .
Hehe. . .
Last nyte i went t0 bed with just a lil bit 0f tears n ingus. . .but its 0k. . .cuz ive g0t A LOT of kisses. . .maceh2. . .dats y i l0ve u. . .flaws n imperfecti0ns are m0re beautiful sumtimes. . .
H0ping n praying things wil get better. .

Btw,br0wsed y0utube. . .
F0und new vids. . .n0t new. .bt bru jumpa. . .
Nice 0ne. . .
Ch0p suey by s.0.a.d. . .
Then g0t m0re s0ngs. . .
D riffs n d beats begitu menenangkn jiwa. . .bla 0wg len dgr,c0nt0h spt ina dan kan0pi,mereka amat x suka. . .
Tp tu la. . .aku suka. . .i mean d music n d lyrix are n0t dat hard 0r harsh 0r watever. . .

Cth:

'0h i d0nt think u trust in my self-righte0us suicide, i cry when angels deserve t0 die. . .' -ch0p suey-

Kn sedih bunyinye. . .anak yg pth hati ngn ayah yg tlh mgabaikn nye. . .ayahnya amat baik diibaratkn sbg angels. . .lagu2 begini amatlah relate ngn aku. . .jgn la misjudged me. . .

Tp ada la lgu len yg membuat aku ska. . Cm lgu cina btajuk bu de bu ai. . .by wilber pan. . .n dan sebenarnya by yuna. . .bla3. . .i dun realy like indie. . .but bleh la lyn. . .muzik s.0.a.d dan sewaktunya is better la. . .lyrix sedih but c0nvey str0ngly. . .makes me feel bersemangat. . .sedih tp jgn menangis. . .x m0 jd p0mpuan lembik. . .huhu. . .

Yeah!
P/s: nsib bek cer0l x menghalang karier sy sbgi peminat muzik begitu. . .l0l. . .

P0st ke-60

6:53 AM, 22-6-2009

Pg yg gelap kini sudah terang. . .
0h3! Tidak sama sekali bg aku. . .
Pagi2 pas subuh dh ngs. . .
Mata aku sgt bengkak. . .
Apasal mcm ni. . .
Rasa x n0rmal. . .
Apasal x mcm 0wg len. . .
Family begini. . .
B0yfren begitu. . .
X nk lyn aku xpe. . .
Jgn smpi tba masa aku dh mls nk lyn anda2 seme. . .jgn pk hati kering u je,i punya hati pun bleh kering. . .
D0nt wake up d sleeping d0g. . .

Time ni seme nk keras kepala!
Kang aku j0in keras kepala jgk,jgn nk slhkn aku lg!
Aku wat dek je,mgalah,mrayu,menangis,k0rg lg pijak kepala aku!
AKU DAH B0SAN NGN PERMAINAN ANDA2 SEME!
N0w its my time!

Satisfy

Its hard t0 satisfy pe0ple. I swear by my father's name,i l0ve mama. But y is she like diz. Mama tny,nurul jwb. N jwpn tu dh wat mama kecik ati,maybe,tp nurul x maw tipu dri sendiri. Seumur idup nurul cuma seorang shj abah nurul ada. Se0rang shj. N dats it. Nurul x phm npa mama msti maj0k. Bnda ni mama x leh paksa. Kalau nurul bleh fhm mama nk kawen lg,n0w its ur time t0 understand what i feel. Hes n0t my father. Nurul binti md isa ismail. Bukan binti 0thman said. Im s0ry.

N0w,mama x maw ckp ngn nurul. Tpaksa nurul settle evryting sndiri. Medical checkup,cemana nurul nk buat suma tu? Nurul x ley drive. X kn nk bwk m0t0 p h0spital. Jauh mama. Nurul x cident mati bru mama hepi ka? Since u hate me s0 much (she didnt even l0ok at my face diz m0rning), i think i shud g0 away fr0m diz h0use.

I l0ve u,mama.
Diz b0ther my mind making it crazier n crazier evrytime kita selisih n u dun even glance at me.

Gila Otak Aku

Aku rs 0tak aku dah mereng.
Aku bkn aku.
Aku bkn yg mcm aku mahu. Damn.
Celaka.
Shit.
B0d0h.
Bangang.
All d ab0ve,are referring t0 me.
Dats all.
Curtain cl0sed.

OMG!

7:03 AM, 16-6-2009

Knp OMG??

Kerana,30minutes b4,i w0ke up n perf0rm my m0rning prayer. Then i tried t0 sleep lg,besa la,pas subuh k0mpem td0q blek,but,this time i cudnt sleep.s0mething is wr0ng s0mewhere.my heart beats t0o fast like it realy g0nna p0p 0ut 0f my chest,it beats t0o hard im afrain it w0nt beat again..

S0,i t0ok a deep breath(diz is what bi2 awez t0ld me t0 d0 if i were t0 get caught up in tr0uble)..0pen d 0.M applicati0n..cri l0ve qu0tes..bla3...then suddenly cm like really 0ut 0f sudden,this th0ught p0p int0 my mind. I FORGOT WHETHER I SUJUD RAKAAT KEDUA,TAHIYAT AKHIR,N DOA or n0t time smyg td..i was like,whats happening t0 my mind? S0 amek wudhu,s0lat lg skali. I just t0tally f0rg0t what i did between after my qunut til d m0ment i first step int0 bed t0 td0 balek.

I m s0o freaking 0ut n0w.

M i g0ing crazy?

M i l0sing my mem0ry?

Pls n0t my mem0ry with him..

S0 scared..feeling s0 psych0tic n abn0rmal..wish hes awake t0 c0mf0rt me..bt hes n0t..n i dun want t0 wake him up just cuz i freak 0ut..bt need t0 talk t0 sum0ne s0 dat i cn feel n0rmal..mayb i shud just sleep..cn i call him? What if he g0t mad n said im l0cking hm up? Dun want cmtu l0r..what t0 d0? Aiy0..just call la..if he x agkt,then i just sleep..

Again,OMG!

:D

Aku hepi skrg.

Terima kasih tuhan krn pjgkn nyawa ku utk aku merasa begini.

Bi2,ILYSM k. . .

Mimpi

Fikiran terganggu.die rase x? Die mpi x yg aku mpi? Aku mpi pertemuan jannah dan cer0l. N0w dat die tamaw aku,means dat,die tamaw cer0l. Aku kah yg gatal? Die x teringin ke? Aku x leh teruskn mcm ni. I need t0 get high t0 f0get dis pain. Hes smiling aredi. Hes n0t feeling kepedihan anym0re. In a relati0nship,b0th need t0 d0 anything dat cud b d0ne t0 save d relati0nship. Bt,n0w,im d0ing it al0ne. He needs 'time'. I dun like waiting, cuz time awez n0t 0n my side. I guess n0w is d rite time f0r me t0 d0 diz. Since n0b0dy cares my feeling anym+re. U,d 0nly h0pe i had,d 0nly 0ne i trust,als0 leaving me. I am al0ne, standing against d wh0le w0rld. I cnt. S0,i hav t0 d0 diz.

Abah-minx ampun,im n0t dat str0ng.

Mama-l0ve u.minx ampun da jd anak durhaka.

Bi2-i cnt b al0ne with0ut u.s0ry.t0ld u time n0t 0n my side.i cnt bear with diz th0ught 0f u leaving me.d pain is sumthng s0o 'cruel' f0r my heart.i cnt wait f0r t0o l0ng.y cnt u undstand.

Bdrul,kitty,bear2,husni-u guys are d best.n0 matter wat,u awez sap0t me.muah.n0w,u g0ta take cre 0f urself.